Blessed ♥

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2011-06-29T06:01:00.001-07:00

Hello earthlings ♥♥ http://formspring.me/rawrrita

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2011-06-25T11:23:00.001-07:00

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2011-05-03T05:43:00.001-07:00

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i like yellow! do you ? HAHAHA!

2011-03-11T05:36:00.001-08:00

i like yellow! do you ? HAHAHA!

Answer here

My saturday with a new friend (loves)

2011-02-26T09:22:00.000-08:00

Dear cyber diary .
Wanted to go to wavehouse today but cancelled cause too lazy and me ,dayah , miera , aidil went to town instead for our usual routines . Well , the flea was great but didnt buy anything though , dont have any money with me .Well , had a great day and ,ade new fiends . Yana is her name and she is a awesome girl . Well , pictures are at her camera and i think she is asleep and not using her com now . HAHA . tired cute girl . Ummm , so ya , i miss crush so much . Well , he dosen't have the same feeling i feel for him but its okay . NOT BEING ABLE TO BE WITH HIM IS NOT THE END . Well , there are many fishes in the sea right ? Well , going to scape again tomorrow cause there's a gig ?? :) Can't wait . Well , gonna survey for clothes too though , Tiring weekend pls? SIGHS . Well ,gonna update pictures tomorrow once yana upload it okay . xoxo .
With love ,
Syaheraah .

My friday

2011-02-25T09:45:00.000-08:00

Dear cyber diary ,
School was okay and maths paper was kinda hard. Well , i studied and i tried my best . So , i did not need to pay any attention at POA lesson cause i dropped duh .HAHA . I slept even . Oh my . Well , recess talked to riyanita about her cousin , hahaha , so funny . Ummm , so last period was chemistry and hell yeah . i paid my full attention and ms. lin told me i got B4 for my exam! I PASSED! . So that made my day . After school stayed in class with bbygee wani firdanie and uma and my closest boys . Played soccer and yes ,the ball hit my head and nah, it dosent hurt but its kinda funny though . Well , then me and uma went to meet iqa and shazee in the canteen . So ya, had a fun time gossiping . Ummm , went home and did nothing except for my lappy lor , im so bored so im updating bloggy now . Well , going to wavehouse with bestfriend dayah , for what photoshoot thingy??? Kinda not sure though . Well , that's all , update soon :) .
with love ,
Syaheraah .

My sleepless nights studying .

2011-02-24T06:27:00.000-08:00

Dear cyber diary,

So , it is a exam week this week . Started off on wednesday . Well , english paper was easy and i think i almost cried while i was writing my composition . I write about a title called home , about how me and my mum bonded and she passed away out of a sudden.I know , im so emotional . But , never did i fail writing a sad ending in compo's cause i never believed in a good ending .So yeah , studied social studies a day before and did not sleep. Well good for me the social studies paper was damn easy and i think i can manage a pass ? or A1 ? hehes. So , next was malay paper and combined science . I did not sleep the night before studying science . Well , i was very dissapointed with my physics paper , did not study well for it :( . But im sure i can pass my chemistry as i studied really hard for it ! . Well , stayed back in school till 9pm just now to revise maths . Yes , my algebra is BAD . Luckily my friends from level 4 and 5 helped me . love them please .So yes , i saw someone wearing yellow. HAHAHAHA , kay i should shut now . Well ,today is gonna be the fourth day im not gonna sleep , yes , im collecting eyebags , only for common test la , or exams? Well , gonna revise maths soon , And my crush damn cute please ,duh , im cuter . HEHE . oh ya , Yan's abg sedare likes me awwwwwwww shoooooo cute please :). Well , goodbye loves .
With love,
Syaheraah .

My saturday and sunday ♥

2011-02-20T03:37:00.000-08:00

Dear cyber diary ,
My saturday was quite a fun tiring one . Well , basically went head to town . Had usual routines to the flea but the flea was like , kinda pathetic .Cause only few flea sellers were there . I was with Dayah , shazee and aidil . Had a fun day with them laughing and crapping well not to mention looking at some cute boys . Nah , we just love looking . So , how about my sunday you say ? It was boring i tell ya . I woke up at 1pm which is to me kinda late cause i always wake up at 9am . This can't be happening . Well , i changed my blogskin , link and all as i find it too dusty i need to do something about it since a laptop is in my hands now . LOL . Tomorrow is monday, well , im not sure what lessons im having but , im sure its gonna be okay since its a monday . I hope so. Common test is starting soon and oh my god , disaster , im thing im gonna fail my social studies if i don't study . Well , gonna continue facebook and twitter as usual guys . If you want me to link you up or anything please tag me okay ? Gonna update soon ,
with love ,
Syaheraah .

love is not .

2011-01-01T12:25:00.000-08:00

Its 4am and im still awake omg . i cant seem to go to bed . sighs . so , yea , just updating for fun . i miss my babygirlbb :( . meeting her definitely today! Meeting A too . yes , i contacted him back la . hahahaha , D too .k shut it . Going out with uma in monday . haha . looking for school bag mah . so yea , thats about it . love you guys , i know its boring , i will update a proper post soon , i promise . :)

2011 PARTY !

2010-12-31T23:16:00.000-08:00

HELLO GUYS , HAD THE BEST COUNTDOWN EVER! dance party ! grind shake till we drop . and yes we dropped ! hahaha! was supposed to be with dayah only but then bumped into miera kay and others la! hahaha , so fun!!! . omo , i wish everyday like that . Made friends , alot! number handphone aku dgn dayah mvm free gitu org mintak bagi . one day free entry . hahaha! omo omo! hahah . okay guys , i hope u enjoyed urday too okay ? peace out! enjoy pics aje k ? HAHA! :)

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! k bye . xoxo

peace out suckers

2010-12-25T21:58:00.000-08:00

hello . so , im going somewhere later so im just gonna update a short post . well , i miss eddie . so much . lol , he is not my boyfriend . used to but not anymore , i just miss him , tk salah kan ? so , gonna go sowhere today and i pray i wont die . sighs .... life huh ? wish me the best guys . and ya . love while you still can , cause i cant , its bad . :( . bye .

I still hope.

2010-12-10T10:25:00.000-08:00

A long time ago, so sad and unknown,
A girl sat, staring, unseeing, out her window,
Tears falling, so silently, streaking, down her cheek,
Remembering, living, old, never-to-be-forgotten memories,
Sitting by the window, hand up against the glass,
eyes glossy, her eyes no longer dance,
Her heart was once whole, beating, alive,
But now her heart is gone, dead, iced over, so cold,
One thought always constantly within her mind,
One thought that shall never, ever, be answered,
The wanting to know, it’s so deep, it’s now a burning desire,
but it’s a worthless desire, because she will never know,
Never know why he’d hurt her so,
So by the window she sits, in her shirts and jeans,
tears streaking down her face, while she remembers things,
Things that should never be remembered, for oh, how they hurt her,
Things that tear at her very soul, things that tear her apart,
Day after day, you’ll find her there, sitting by the window,
eyes unseeing, yet her mind so alive,
Day after day, you’ll see all those tears fall

Dear "pakcik" , i miss you .

2010-11-19T13:25:00.000-08:00

How can someone write about a love when there is no words to explain. Its hard to go to each day and not have the person you love to be with you. Its hard to be happy knowing that you have to wait to see them. And when you do ...You only get a certain amount of time. I cry almost everyday to help ease the pain I feel from missing him and being alone. To go to bed and reach for the one you love and they are not there...just a space...like the distance between us. My Heart has a cloud over it and when you come around the sun starts to shine through..but when I have to say bye again....The thunder and rain begin to pour over my heart. My lonely nights will some day end. But right now my pain is great. With love you will have hurt. If loving was always being happy then it wouldn't be love..because you will always miss it when its gone. My tears seem to ease my pain from not having you here to hold me. So my eyes grow weary from the fallen tears. Through my eyes pours the rain from the storm over my heart when you are gone. Paradise is right around the corner..Sun shinning bright and beautiful days to come. Time is what will stop the storm and the pain. Someday I wont be alone and the sun will rise in my eyes and dry away the rain.

im sorry for that decision i made . im sorry for myself too . one day, you'll know .

Someone , anyone, free on saturday ? Text me . Let's go out .

2010-11-18T13:03:00.000-08:00

2010-11-18T12:57:00.000-08:00

An endless chattering of voices assaults my ears
Comments and inquiries washing over me in a wave of chaos
I turn away and search through my surroundings
Eyes sliding over familiar faces of students
Slowly my vision glazes over as my mind dozes

A moment of rest, day dreamy thoughts start to fill my sight

When suddenly my eyes snap back into focus
Narrowing in the face of a boy, one that i have seen before
In passing, the hallway, the yearbook....but never have i seen so clearly
That smile

Trying not to stare, my gaze keeps flickering back
Carefully attempting not to attract notice
But too enraptured to give up looking at him

Oops, he almost saw...or did he? I turned quickly to avoid it
but i'm not quite sure....and i'm not even positive i care.
A smile creeps slowly ontomy own face,
dimples appearing in my cheeks as i glance back again
His smile is contagious, impossible to ignore
I have never met him, but i want to know him.

A teenage crush
I’m almost afraid
Of buffer flies
With knives
They are slashing up my insides
First time it ever happened
One look and I was completely hooked
Nothing I could say
Nothing I could do
Couldn’t explain it
There is just something about you
Not the type of guy I would usually go for
I am scared to talk around you
Encase I make an fool of myself
But the silences they kill me......
My palms are all sweaty
And all I want is for you to glance my way

Flower petals

2010-11-17T05:52:00.000-08:00

I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved. Then you came along... I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past.

At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being that we were both behind the screen. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself - damn it - I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore! I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you.

I have these feelings, deep inside
feelings that I have to hide
I don't know if he feels that way too
And I don't know what to do

So for now I'll love him from afar
One day I'll express how special you are
So until then I will retain this rush
And until then I'll contain my crush.

So , here you guys go , i dont really have anything to update about .

Wondering

2010-11-16T06:37:00.000-08:00

Hello , im sorry for the lack of updates . Well , i will only update if someone ask me to , that "someone" . So today stayed home and went out with mum for a short while . Well , i have been goingout at 12am in the morning and going home at 6am , this is sucha bad routine . I must cut down on that . really . So , to someone that is reading this , he was sorry for neglecting me . Well , obviously i was happy that i got his text . DUH . Im wondering why some people won't let me contact him , some people say this that , i also like what the heck sia -.- . IGNORE RAWR IGNORE , from last year you like him then now people wanna complain , pain in the ass . This makes me frustrated , really . Well , whatever . Tomorrow gonna go nanai's house, grandma , duh. Will be heading to karaoke with cousins next . well , i gtg , update soon , when he asks me too . :P . XOXO.

Have you ever fell in love with someone that you never really talked too , has a 2 year age diffrence , and is totally diffrent from you? i have , trust me , its not working out that well . :/

These sick nights

2010-11-07T11:14:00.000-08:00

Hello , its 2.30 am and im still not asleep . bummer , having fever . sighs .So , today basically went for a job interview at bishan , MINI TOONS ^^ .oh yes , im gonna be located near west area but i hope its not gonna be lot one or causeway ? . HATE IT , too many people i know . So , after job interview had lunch with babygirl peeqa . After that went to her house and nap , iwas so sleepy please ? AND HELLO D , you texted me that one not i reply , its peeqa . i was fast asleep ! :P . SORRY . After i woke up , went to meet raqib , rahim , faiz , faizz , aikau , faiq , apiz . Slack and talk , pranked called , they nothing to do what . hahaa . I waslike stuoid play with their hockey stick like one dumb crazy girl -.- . So , soon around 11 , babygirl went home , apiz ,faiq,aikau and left with me raqib , fadhil and afiq .Both of them were from work .Decided to have supper atcoffe shop . Had prata . yum! . k shut . hahaha .Went home , and boom! here i am , at last sick !! :S . AND I MISS THAT GUY , I HAVE NO IDEA WHY . sometimes i think im stupid for even hanging on .. am i ?I THINK I AM ? rawr is sucha dumbass! . Well , i gtg , hoping that i meet my mars soon then :/ . XOX .

WELL , HERE YOU GO , I MISS YOU , OKAY ?

BABY LOVES DAY OUT!

2010-10-31T09:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PEEQAA! :) and yes , im already okay w her , i dont want sins , please ? im not gonna live long . so , its better if i patch things up . loveyou girls , and erin and iqa , i havent forgot u sexy bitches , i miss you babe , trust me , meet soon , i miss u so bad that i keep on looking at your guys pictures :) xoxo .

Happy birthday to baby star !

2010-10-18T09:49:00.000-07:00

Hello peepos . Today was baby star birthday , HE WAS CUTE YAW . hahaha , love you baby , 2 years old liao . Anyhuu , today had our sports week activity , was kinda fun , i got shooting but it was hard to get the bulls eye . HARD . haha , so , its my babylove birthday today , wani! <3333 . hehehe , got her a present and there's part 2 to it . LOL . gonna update about that soon i think . hahaha . Met fazz and mamat at block 8 together with syarkk too . Went to 159 to meet izzat . got something to do , heheheheh . evil or what ? -.- . haha , so , ginna work soon , i need money laaa! aigoooo . Update soon guys , love ya! xxoo , <333 .

Weird night .

2010-10-17T10:43:00.000-07:00

Im gonna post some pics on the 15th of october , went town and then karaoke with all my best babies! :) njoy ^^ .

Insanely stupid jerks .

2010-10-14T07:17:00.000-07:00

Hello people , today school was great cause did nothing . HAHAHA . exams are done . I am so freaking happy .that we need not stress out so much now . But still , we have results to worry about . Thats a big bummer ..So basically today after school , faiz left me all alone but luckily umar met me and we were both lonely . hahaha! , Nah , 2 is enough .Went to teck whye macd to slack with him but end up slacking with eugene and umar's classmates . Anyhuuu , me and umar saw alot of people walking so weirdly .hahaha , then went to get a bubbleteafor myself and went to lot one together . wanted to walk but , it was damn hot .Took the bus and laughed all the way watching my videos . HAHAHA . Bumped into miera and she wanted to follow me and umar . Walked around lot one , blablabla , boom! buy sushi went home . Thats all . boring la . fought with "a" today , so pissed . Gonna update soon , xxoo . <3

Look out the stars baby

2010-10-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

I LOVE MY "A" .

Hello . Im a happy girl . I have lots of friends that love me , i dont need another heartbreaker . I have a ttm now and i love him . He is , idk ? NICE ? YES HE IS , AND IRRITATING TOO . Today , stayed home , did some house chores cause i wanted to save money to go karaoke with my sexy loves .And "a" . :) . Went sheng shiong and spent 100 dollars on groceries . HAHAHAHA . So , daddy day by day giving me money like paper , good . HAHAH! , ANYHU , gonna meet hanis and filzaa tomorrow . :) . My cute girls and setan too . Oh , first meeting "a" after school , gonna hug him ! :) . Bye , update soon ^^ . And , bestfriend acamm said he misses me . <3 love you bestfriend .

I MISS YOU ALREADY

2010-10-12T09:38:00.000-07:00

Im sorry for not picking up your call at 10am , i was asleep cause i cried so bad cause you're leaving singapore . I have eyebags , and the moment i wake up , there was your last call before you went to kuala lumpur . I dont know when you will be back but , you should know , i loved you . The way you cared about me and all , and the way you worry for me , and i worry for you , i miss that . I miss you . The person who keeps on disturbing me when he is bored . My msn is so quiet . And , you were my ttm for like a damn long time , you should know feelings grow right ? . Well , im so heartbroken that i did not hear your voice before you moved to KL .I miss you . Please email me okay , im waiting . xx . Syaheraah .
it was all too late .....

DAMN

2010-10-12T07:39:00.000-07:00

meet hanis , she's a PRETTY GIRL , I LOVE HER! HAHAHAHA , OH YA , AND FILAZAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! OI, BYE~~ HAHAHAHAHAHA

"A"

2010-10-11T11:20:00.001-07:00

I want to be alone , at the very least , with you .

Leaving .

2010-10-11T11:15:00.000-07:00

To know you was the best thing that happened to me , you know , im gonna miss you . I will promise to study hard for you . Please come back fast , and remember to call me when you're going , i loveyou . :') .

Many people i love are like leaving me , not hate me , its as in , moving or migrating . I hate it . Well , today i stayed home , nothing much to do , im not in the mood to blog now , sorry people . xxoo .

Hello

2010-10-09T10:37:00.000-07:00

IMMA LAZY GIRL , SO , HELLO , PICTURES ONLY CAN ? CAN LA KAN ? K BEST . ENJOY!

went to muzika extravaganza at mediaCORP ! IT WAS FUN!I LOVE TOMOK! RAJA GELEK!! <3

I MISS YOU BLOG :(

2010-10-06T09:57:00.000-07:00

Hello ! Its been a long time since i blog !!!! . OMG OMG OMG ! .I hope its not dead uh ? So . lets do a summary of today . I ended my paper at around 9.15 . Had to do a survey and after that went to macdees with wani izzat faiz . Slacked there with apek dearest and others , oh ya , bestfriend too ! :) . We have to spend time together okay! :))) . Slacked at macdees and apek keep on disturb me ! sheesh , play fight fight some more!! . hahaha . Then went home and celebrated hilman birthday at around 3.30 . He was suprised!! , awww! ikashy si sweet ! :) hehe . Went home , took a nap and went study with , alot of people lazy to mention!!!! haha .Studied for last paper POA , stress! hahaha . Yup , thats all about it . heehee . Oh my , i dont know what to wear for muzika extravaganza!!!! . HELP !!! . JUST FORMSPRING ME OKAY , http://formpring.me/rawrrita . thanks people . Anyhuuuuu , my boyfriend calls me mok! chey!hahaha . Bye , toodles <3

Babes and hunks raya outing

2010-09-22T09:50:00.000-07:00

Im just gonna post pictures okay . sorry . i just got home from raya again . please understand . Anyhu , this post is for yesterday! :)

I had fun on 210910

2010-09-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

Hey guys , i just reached home . Pictures will be uploaded tomorrow okay ? So , no pictures , no fun to blog , xxx . Blog tomorrow . Anyhu , i was in team blue just now! :) <3333

I can't do this right ?

2010-09-20T08:32:00.000-07:00

Hello lovers . xxx . Okay . i went to school today even though i was really lazy . Imma goodgirl i know . School was kinda dull , cause lessons were kinda dry . I saw both of them , but only talked to "e" . "d" ? I know its best for me not to talk to him . So im moving on , in a few days im gonna be single , yeapyeap . hahahaha! "INSIDE JOKE" . Those who dont know anything fuck off . hahaha . Anyhu , mother and father has been giving me suckish attitude , i hateit Big sis is sick . woah , i dont wanna get infected please ? hahaha , so , "a" did not text me for the whole day , fuck him . -.- . but f" texted me ! :) . He made my day ... awwww . me miss him . So , wedensday raya outing , gonna be tiring , but , wtheck ? $$$$$$$ . HAHAHA . so . i gtg now peeps , there is school tomorrow . bye lovelies . love! :) .

look , i dont need a liar like you , please , forget us! . move on with yourgf , i hate you , get it ?

Raya with loves

2010-09-17T09:36:00.000-07:00

i love my boys , oh ya , too tired to update .im bored , add me in msn! hahahaha , gurl_era@hotmail.com .

dear m ,who are you ?

APOLOGISE

2010-09-16T06:37:00.000-07:00

Hello readers ,sorry for not updating since 2nd day of raya . Im kinda pissed off right now so i wint be updating much . school was kindafun , saw him again , ala , everyday see him la! . hahaha . "a" texted . sighs . can i avoid you both ? i dont wanna be the third party you know i feel so stupid ? shall text "seronok" later , tomorrow wanna go school with him la! hahaha . i think ? . so , school has been the best but my loves are graduating soooooooooooooooon :( . me so sad yknow . sighs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! .my post is stupid today ,anyway , i will updare a proper post soon . i promise . xoxo ,rawr .

Dead beat

2010-09-10T10:28:00.000-07:00

Hello loves , im dead beat , will blog tomorrow , xoxo . <3

Happy Hari Raya !

2010-09-09T11:12:00.000-07:00

Im tired . went to geylang jusy now . i love you all . shall go to bed . gonna get hair and nails done tomorrow . love many many . kiss kiss .

I LOVE MY BABY MANY MANY , MY BABY IS TOMOK YOU KNOW . <3

Hari Raya eve :)

2010-09-08T14:06:00.000-07:00

The day has come and it's gonna be Hari Raya tomorrow . Well , this post is especially to my loved ones ,
Rawr mintak maaf kalau ada sakitkan hati sesiapa , terkasar bahasa . Halalkanlah makan minum . Maafkanlah kesilapan rawr kalau rawr ada buat salah , dan terakhir sekali SELAMAT MENYAMBUT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI . Semoga rakan-rakan rawr bergembira selalu ye? Dan ingat la kepada yang sudah tiada , sedekahkan al-fatehah untuk mereka ya ? amin~ .

I really cannot wait for tomorrow! omg omg omg ! :) . Gonna be so happy meeting up with cousins and all . Gonna take alot of pichas with them . Its already 5am though , i should go to bed soon . Goodbye , to all muskims , enjoy you Hari Raya tomorrow ! <3333 xxxxooooo .

Boy im dumb .

2010-09-07T12:54:00.000-07:00

Hey there guys , i have nothing to post about , so , i found this sweet thing on the net , enjoy ^^ .
10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

He's just the one , but he's owned .

2010-09-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

Hello darlings .Well , mum bought for me my baju kurung so that means i need not go to geylang yay! . Oh , mum bought baju kurung songket in 4 diff colours , well, i tried the pink one cause the pink one looks nice . Well , today i went to school . For social studies lesson . I was suppose to have maths and physics but i did not sleep the whole day and i was really tired . After school , accompanied wani baby to do her hair treatment , her hair is so soft ! :) . then slacked at macdonald while waiting for art . Then i head home . I help mum arrange things in our new fridge . its huge . i managed to get a short nap and luckily i was not fasting , i cursed alot , like seriously .
Then after helping mum , i decided to use the laptop , and his friend said step up 3 was boring cause i linked to him one video of step up 3 when moose was doing the water scene . sheeeesh , how could his friend said it was boring ? Curse his friend la . hahahha . So , after he got my notification , he went online , aint that cute ? He knows . awww .He went to break-fast again and i was sad . booohooo . But then i was waiting and waiting , he wasnt online until it was around 8.45 he texted me he was cleaning the house . awww , at least i know he thinks about me ? Is that a good thing ?. So , texted him for awhile and webcammed with socks :) . she called me an animal . hahaha , cause i was noisy . hehehe , so out of nowhere he went online again and chatted with him , hehehe , he seems a lil hyper today but who cares ? he's cute ^^ . and hope i can go to school wednesday , hope i can wake up . cause he is having cca . Anyhu , i miss him alot ! :( . Got to go now loves , xoxox . :) .
do you have any idea how wide i smile when i talk to you . ? :)

Because you love to send me smileys .

2010-09-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

Today my day was spent in a fun way slacking . Im still having my menses and , i did not fast , sheesh . Met my two best girl syaf and dayah . How i miss dayah . That reminds me , how is she doing with palat ? haha , should text her soon sia . HAHA . Well , slacked with both of them at teck whye cc , we had no better place , so , head to some temptation challenge and went to seat at macdonald , haha . Laughed jock and peeqaa had a faceboook fight with 2 aliens ? pathetic much . haha . Well , whatever it is. Went home and dad bought cinnamon melts and mcwings for me . craving sia . Watched camp rock 2 , it was kinda okay ^^ . fun . haha , demi , stop smiling like you wanna shit , but still , youre pretty . :) . Ugh , i miss that smiley guy so bad , hopes he gets home soon , i wanna talk to you please ? I miss you . hee :P .Anyway , i got school in the morning at 9am , so gotta head to bed soon , love you all . toodles. xoxo .
the dj got us falling in love again .

I feel confused .

2010-09-04T08:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i wonder , how good it feels to have a boyfriend and finally move on . How good life goes on . But suddenly , when you're in love with someone , your past loves comes back telling you he loves you too much that he can hardly breathe , and your used to be deepest biggest crush says he loves you . Confusion starts running through your mind and you feel that having to fall in love was not a good idea after all , it makes you go confused , But why the hell did they came telling us they love us only when we're seeing someone else and when we're gone . Boys , stop making girls confused , tell us what you really want , stop making last minute choices . For now , i don't know what to do , but all i know is, im utterly confused . :/
you should know i love you , but .......

why must there be fights ?

2010-09-02T06:41:00.000-07:00

Well , school was awesome today . But , wani baby was sick and all . Get well soon b! love you .After school , something huge happened at the canteen , which really hurts me to see this happen . Guys can you please just stop all these fights . its a holy month and you know , your fighting with your own religion . thats no good . Oh yes , i care about you guys too , thats why i stopped the fight and blocked you guys from hitting him . can we please end this all ?? . I dont know what would have happened if wasnt there just now . Please guys , end all this , your n levels are coming ..... think .

Anyway , me and cuda is still like contacting , but , he has a girlfriend and i should not text him often , if not some bitches will start a rumour about me , that sucks . Anyway , i got to go , update soon you all . xoxo .
i misss daaaaaanhaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! :) .

sick of it .

2010-09-02T06:32:00.000-07:00

Im sick of everything between you and me . you just chose to give up just because of rumours , you know what , you're a coward , but still , you're the coward i will always love . :)

I miss you bloggy .

2010-09-01T10:04:00.000-07:00

Hello humans and cyberspace lovers and haters . I know it's been a long time since i blog , ive been busy with school life and love life like obviously , i love it though . So , i already rebind my hair , sighs , how ? does it look okay on me ? well , i dont know , but i did it anyway . HAHA . Life has been very very wonderful for me . With baby and friends by my side , im happy too ! :) . I need not handle stupid friendship dramas like , ugh , irritating . My bestfriend understands me so clearly ! . And , just so you know , my friends ALL wanna be friends naturally and they are not my brother or sister's friend . Im not an extra ! . hahaha , like seriously ? . Ok so , school ? its been good , but , this fasting month i kept on going to school with a sleepy face! . And becoming lazy . Shall improve . Goodluck to me! :) . love you guys , and hate one of you . xoxo .

i'll dream a teenage dream .

my oh my

2010-08-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

"Tell them what i hoped would be impossible ."

Remember how we used to be ?

2010-08-21T11:01:00.000-07:00

"Used to be are the best memories."

Don't be mad

2010-08-21T10:28:00.000-07:00

And here, I thought it was me.
I was changin', arrangin' my life to fit your lies.
It's all said and all done.
I gave it all for the long run.
Can she say the same thing?
I guess this is good-bye and good luck

I can't be what you want me to be.
I'm sorry for changing.
I'm sorry it had to be this way.
Believe me, it's easier just to pretend.
But, I won't apologize for who I am.

                                               I thank you for this hopeless war
                                 Cause through the pain now I am stronger than before.
                                                             Now I'm more.
                                                  I don't need you anymore.
                                                                I'm sorry.

Pinkie swears .

2010-08-21T09:04:00.000-07:00

Konichiwa , oh yes , just wanna wish to EDDY SIM JING JIE a HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY , ENJOY YOUR SPECIAL DAY OKAY AHBENG , AND OH YES , I MISS YOU , HAHAHA .<333333333333

So , my day was well spent at home as mummy do not wanna go to geylang. good, cause i heard it was boring . So , just a reminder to myself , notto get jealous over STUPID PEOPLE OR THINGS . HAHAHA . Wow , i think my menses coming la thats why sudden emotion cause actually really i don't care ley . haha , oh how i wished school open fast . i miss someone Bad! heehe . Just a short post will do! :) . xoxo .

you're so special , i still love you .

Exhausted .

2010-08-19T05:22:00.000-07:00

MEET MY CUTE SKANDAL , IM TIRED , BYE . <3 SORRY .

These late nights .

2010-08-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

Ohaiyo , im still not asleep and it is already 1 am and i have school tomorrow . Oh ya , my lil sis is awake with me too . She has no school tomorrow , and yes , fuck i have school . ugh , im so lazy to go to school but i can i love school because i can meet my loved ones please!!! :) . Oh yes , im planning to go to geylang with my hunks and babes this friday , hope they can make it , its just a plan first but i still not sure . GUYS REPLY ME SOON , PLEASE! :) . Today , after i break-fast , went to meet my lovely ikashy , peeqaa , sam , izaad , fahmi and more . hahaha , slacked . Talk trash la as usual thats what we do alwatys and yes most importantly always gossip! hahahaha! . About dance thingy lor! sheesh , so the confusing la people !!! . In the afternoon , zaidi called , hope he's okay now , sheesh , people who treat him badly needs a slap from me please!!! . ugh . i swear if the law let's me and only me to kill people i would kill them for you zaidi ! . hahahaha . So , i think i should sahur a lil early today , if not i wont have enough energy for school :( . hahahaha , luckily lil missy is awake to accompany me . Ah , i miss syaizstar and my sister kiki la! When the fuckin hell are they coming home!! . hahaha , i shall stop before i go gaga la okay :) . goodnight , or morning ? haha , bye anyways .
! . :) xoxoxox.

I love my lovelies .

2010-08-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hell sorrow suckers . School was super duper fun , and i almost KISSED someone . :P . Just an inch more it was . HAHAHA . OKAY , HERE'S THE SITCH , Tomorrow is FAIZ birthday! my son , here's for him : Happy birthday dearest son i care and love , may you feel blessed and happpy on your special day , and i hope it will be really special . I just wana say that you have been a really great good friend . you never fail to make me laugh , never fail to put a smile on everybody . It reminds me of your bestfriend , arwah amirul hafiq . I know since he passed away , you ever had someone close like he was with you , but , you know what ? you got us , your friends who loves and care about you , we just wana see you smile , the way you make us smile , faiz , you are the best , happy sixteen birthday . i love you ; muumy monbi .
So , that's all folks , just a special post to a very good friend and son of mine <3 . xoxo .
friendship never ends .

Let's just say ..

2010-08-16T09:21:00.000-07:00

It's no wrong for bestfriends to hug this way ,

cause both of them need each other ,

love each other

and can feel each other's heart , feel each other's pain.

It's not a sin to have a boy bestfriend.

but ,

its the biggest mistake to fall in love with him .

I've been there .

It sucks , somehow.

But , i like it somehow too .

it will be a chapter starting in the future hopefully.

But not now , i'll have to wait for it .

And i will always will .

Fucked up .

2010-08-15T09:40:00.000-07:00

I don't have any idea why you people , i mean enemies and haters are being sucha jerk . Well , first , isnt it my problem to like who ? So what if you know him ? Its not as if he's yours , too late , he LOVES me . Please oh please get your own boy . And secondly , what is with you people calling me a bitch ? Cause i know alot of your guy friends ? Well too bad , they wanted to know me MORE!!! . hahahaha . loserz weeperz . tsk tsk , so damn irritating bitches . And thirdly , i am not attached, so , why do you people keep on bugging me saying last long , ignorant , player . jealous much ? THAT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!! -.- . i hate you kpo'ers! xoxo .

I wish...

2010-08-14T10:30:00.000-07:00

Trust me ,

i've been typing this on my phone ,

everyday .

But i delete it .
Because i did not know it would be this hard .
It's hard because ,
i cant find the right words to say ,
how much i still love you ,
because i told you , i moved on .

For every single thing , you kept me going .

2010-08-14T09:56:00.000-07:00

(i miss old hair)Hello , sorry for alot of unproper post for days . Im a lil hardworking today so i will post a proper one for you okay ? .So , was supposed to break-fast at geylang today but it was postponed to next friday . So , yes , managed to rest at home cause i am still SICK . So , basically just watched tv and slept with mum . hee :P . Had a lil tiff with mum in the afternoon . hate it , forget it please ? . So , daddy ordered pizza hut today to break-fast . I was so happy . yumm yumm . So , after break-fast played remote control car with lil missy (childish) and watch the opening of YOG ! . At home la of course . :) . The pretty light colours was so amazing , i wish i was there and the fireworks is better than on national day! :) .So , yes did you know my bestfriend zaidi lost our friendship band we bought at vivo ? . Nah , i dont blame him , we will buy a new one kay honey ? LOVEYA! . Oh yes , i did not reply alot of farwin's text , and danha did not text me ? Farwin is mad atme , i knowfor sure . SIGHS . SORRY LOVE , im in no mood . Cl me soon aye baby? xoxo .

It's weird .

2010-08-13T09:10:00.001-07:00

Missing prince :(

2010-08-12T08:51:00.000-07:00

Hello boys and girls . I shall say i miss bestfriend zaidi . I miss alot of people .I'm in no mood to blog . Dearest prince , i miss you so much Muhd Farwin <3 .
love you , :( 100910

crushy bushy

2010-08-11T08:55:00.000-07:00

you make me smile .

even if you did nothing,

you still made me smile .

do you catch a breath when i look at you?

when i look at you , are you feeling that same feeling i feel too?

is this love?

i dont know .

But for some reasons , i keep on thinking about you.

why ?

It all started with a small crush .

But you're younger than me .

It's impossible right?

sighs .

I wish i was a princess .

2010-08-10T10:14:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say , HAPPY FASTING MONTH TO ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE . Better fast , i want this year to be full for me . Oh yes , above are pictures on national day , went out with ALOT of people , around 20 ? wow . I think there's more . Oh yes , finally , my crush contacted me , like , if not , we only contact through facebook , i hate that . HAHA . Nowcan text, butwhen nk call ? ehem ehem . haha , ala , my prepaid low liao .Must save . So , yes yes , ishall go to bed soon , cause later mustsahur and wake my other siblings up . So , macdonalds for sahur yay! im happy pig . hahah . Update soon peepes , loveya . Oh ya , my bestfriend ZAIDI JAILANI , i miss you . mwah! .

i wish i was your princess , i miss you , everything about you .

Im sixteen , still confused .

2010-08-07T09:58:00.000-07:00

All i want is to be free from love ,

but , its so damn hard.

Cause it's everywhere.

I know love isn't everything , but somehow its always in a part of somebody .

I know , we girls tend to be too emotional at times .

But hey boys , do you know why ?

Because we care .

we love.

Somehow , having too much crush makes people say you're a player ?

Cheating on our boyfriends makes us a liar ?

Having alot of guy friends make us a flirt ?

No .

We're a player cause , too many guys played on us ,

We cheat because because too many times we have been cheated,

We don't flirt , we just need a guy friend to talk to ,

because "he" obviously knows how guys like to be treated.

We did everything , under all circumstances to make you happy.

But always ,

we were to be blamed , yelled , or cursed .

We tolerate it somehow ,

cause we dont wanna let go .

We endured until our girlfriends call us stupid .

Our family starts to hate you.

People call us dumb to even believe in you .

A lesson to learn here boys ,

we have a much harder time than you think .

Treat us the way we should be .

Because , somehow , somewhere ,

two of "us" are meant to be together .

APPRECIATE , LOVE .

Learn .

Never regret .

oh shucks , i have a crush on a younger person .....

PURRYS!

2010-08-06T05:33:00.000-07:00

ZAIDI JAILANI is my bestest favourite boyfriend ever , really . <3
Today had my performance in school , i was nervous and my leg was cramp and it hurts . But for the sake of the crew , i had to dance . They said it was nice , fantastic , to everyone who supports us , shouted for us , i love you ! we apreciate it alot . LOVES FROM EMPIRE CREW .So , had a great day in school , really . i want turn back time please . LOL . After that went to teckwhye mac with daya and peeqa . Had lots of fun sia! hahaha , especially daya with her annoying faces , cb cb cb! . hahahah .Oh ya , we slacked for quite awhile , long actually . HAHAHA . Went home , and ya , i love on the phone with baby zaidi ! hahahaha , i call all my bestest baby , dont get me wrong here ah . HAHAH , ZAIDI , I LOVE YOU , YOU ARE SO THE IRRITATING LA! hahaha , oh yes , I LOVE BOBI !!!! :D . dance photos and videos upload cepat plesa ? :) . xoxo .
me and besfriend fight but we always get better :)

Please .

2010-08-05T08:05:00.000-07:00

Hello readers , im still not asleep im kinda nervous for tomorrow's performance please ?!?!?!!?!! . ahhh , yes , i think im not gonna blog much , hahaha , and yes , my besfriend lied to meagain !! . hahaha , mati ah kau nanti jumpe ~~ . heeheeeh . wish the empire crew luck boys and girls! <3
I RINDU KAT NAGIESHA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! :(

where ?

2010-08-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

I MISS MY DEAREST BESTFRIEND , I HAVE NO MOOD TO BLOG . I MISS ZAIDI JAILANI PLEASE ? BOOOHOO.

And hello girl you no need to talk to my friends about your stuffs ah , irritating . they seem to care but actually they don't , go with you best people only la ! .

Testing 1 , 2 , 3 .

2010-08-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

Sup hooligans and angels . `Sorry for not blogging yesterday , i was really tired . School was fun and had dance practice today . Performanceis on friday , and im so nervous and scared , issit the same ? hahaha , LOL . Anyway , yes , went out ofschool around 6.30pm and accompanied daya to have her dinner ? i think ? Its was so hilarious when bestfriend (zaidi)called and daya kept on wanting to be me . As purr would always say , geli ~ . HAHAHA . Halfway my batt went flat ! ah , hp was switched off . damn it hahahahaha Then reached home did some unimportant stuffs and bestfriend called . OK , here's the sitch , my bestfriend zaidi is so annoying that he keeps on singing camp rock 2songs and react to artzooka's commercial . I wonder if he got his edible underwear eh zaidi ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! . HAHAHAHA. So , my life is better without hypocrites , grow up kay ? love you , oh no , HATE! . kay readers , update soon yaw , xoxo , syaheraah tan mei lee . Oh yes , I LOVE BOB :`D

you are so not needed in my life please ? I hate you please ? i know my besfriend is gonna get irritated by my please ? But who cares , i miss crush please ???? :D

Mood-swings .

2010-08-01T07:54:00.000-07:00

Come on girl , what are you trying to prove here ? no life . Do you have any idea that you're sucha stalker ? You use people . You're an ug;ly bitch . Get out of the people that i love life's. You're a follower . You're just a hypocrite . ASSHOLE . I HATE YOU .

Morning loved ones

2010-07-31T14:50:00.000-07:00

I have no idea why im awake at 5am in the morning . Well , this will be a shortpost . Will update about shopping trip later night .

Its raining so heavy and perhaps thats the reason why i cant sleep. or maybe you keep on texting me ? can you please dont text me ? it hurts . cause i heard , somehow, you called me "______" .

Anybody heard that bestfriend is sick ? awww , pity him . Get well soon zaidi . mwah! .<3
oh yes , im craving for curry puff please ?

toodles babys . :)

Desires for her .

2010-07-30T07:44:00.000-07:00

Hello humanoids . Today is a normal day . Met shikin outside my house cause she broke up with akid . Then skip skip crying part . Oh ya , when shikin told me how much she did not wanna lose her boyfriend , suddenly i thought about zaidi , and realised how much i never wanted to lose him as my fav bestest boy-friend . I love you bestfriend . I will never call you my 2nd . seriously . Then , asked daddy for money to top up my phone cause he cancel plan go sheng shiong . Pantat . My lil missy accompanied me . Love her . A minute after i top up , zaidi call , like magic he know i top up , finally hear his voice , to me it's been decades omgeee! . Hahaha , and e , that peaceful guy asking a slap from me issit ? Oh yes , chatted with Dan , CUTE AH , my crush , for me to know , for you to find out! heeheehee , okay peepos , shortpost . Will be going out with babygirl , izzat , wani , hairul , dayahh to buy clothes for our modern dance during ndp in school . Update soon ! xxox .
Trust me , i care .

Forever Fav Boyfriend .

2010-07-29T07:11:00.000-07:00

I know i was wrong , i know i seemed i did not care at all . Well , actually i do .Trust me , i went deep down to know about your daily routine .I was worried , i know for now , you're saying im heartless and all zaidi. the fact is that i dont wanna be weak anymore , keeping on feeling hurt for myself . but here i am . admitting , I MISS YOU FAV BOYFRIEND , I REALLY DO . :( I LOVE YOU , I CARE ABOUT YOU . it's you ZAIDI JAILANI <3

Solo riders in love

2010-07-28T07:15:00.000-07:00

This is making me crazy . Im still having this bloody sickness . Fever and flu sucks big time . Does he have any idea how much i miss him ? I bet he dosen't .I am happy , but a lil bit wrong in the inside . Whatever . Who the hell do i blog like ? I think its you . Well , whatever . Up to you looserz . Topping up my phone on friday .I'm gonna text alot of peepos soon . Meeting hyddy in my school tomorrow .Me love her . Having leg cramps too. I vomitted everything i ate . This is really happening to me ? Im used to it , well . Whatever it is , my friends and baby makes me happy <3 . You the best. Im sorry if my post is pathetic , i have no mood . Really really sick . :( Update soon love , gotta get my pills in ma mouth .
you , you you , it's all diffrent without you , like how we used to be .

Real sick in the head .

2010-07-27T07:59:00.000-07:00

Aloha cuties . So , i did not turn up for school today , why ? FEVER , COUGH , FLU , SORE THROAT . Clear enough ? haha .I basically pretty much stayed at home today . Mum bought pizzahut , pepperoni pizza , hawaiian , 2 garlic bread , baked beefballs . That basically made my day wow . All i said was i feel like eating pizza and she ordered ?! I LOVE YOU MUMMY . So yes , watched tvand talked and gossip with my BROTHER and LIL MISSY asyou can see in the pic above , I LOVE THEM SO MUCH , though they give me problems at times , they are still the best . My brother went out left me lil missy and mummy at home . Mum had to sleep cause she had to work later night . So , basically just played nintendo , cooking mama games with lil missy .Around 8 met daddy at market cause lil missy want to buy a small bag for herself . I asked dad for top up , but he said friday ? Nah , whats the hurry right ? I just said okay . Dad asked whether i wanted to go to the doctor i said no cause its no use , waste of money . haha . Reached home , mum was late for work , omg . Me and dad viewed weird people on facebook , hahahaha . I showed my dad a certain someone (girl) and dad said , her face seriously need to be suckedby a vaccum . LOL daddy LOL . hahahaha . Overall i miss whole family outings . Soon kay "TAN FAMILY" ? We are still the happy family okay ? LOVES! :) . Update soon , xoxo .

How i wish we were how it used to be .

Looserz-weeperz .

2010-07-26T08:34:00.000-07:00

And i wanna wish a happy birthday to my baby muhammad ridhwan aka nomad . Me love you , sorry no present okay ? The weird thing is that nomad told me , its okay if there is no present , he just want me to be happy . You the sweetest! Love you baby brother! School was like draggy today , it was ok , kinda fun , but not fun .Daddy won't allow me go school tomorrow , fever and coughing blood , condition getting worst . naaah , im okay , i think ? School ended 12.30 and i skipped extra lessons , weak , im not feeling well . Went back to school for dance prac , faiz accompanied me to take my pants athme . hahaha . cute .Went to school waited for others , then i got to know having prac outside school . weak . hahahaha . Had prac bla bla bla , the story goes on . And dayah friend name adnan want my number . LOL . i have no idea , omg . hahahah .Went to slack near syaf's block and dayah went home . Went to babygirl(syafiqa) crib and had a girls talk , talkedabout our ex boyfriends andal , imagine , for two hours ? hahahaha . I LIKE IT THOUGH! . Had a great dinner with her family , sotong , kangkong and chicken . Me likeeey! . Went home and here i am blogging having fever , i keep on coughing out blood . ahhh! Whatever , it hurts my throat alot!! pleaseplease . Ishhhh .Well , update soon babygeeees , ohyes , i am going shopping at the end of the month please ? :) . Anybody ? im sure baby will accompany me . love ya , xoxo .

changes happen for a reaon , a big one .

This is shit .

2010-07-25T08:04:00.000-07:00

Oh hello . Today was kinda draggy for me , i stayed home the whole day , duh , im a good girl . So , i stayed home , watched tv , eat , watch tv , ewww . Im so not gonna keep up with this routine .So , ALOT of people texted me up to meet , but , my prepaid is low . boohoo , and plus i was really lazy la . I've been having countless of dance practices after school , rehearsals , extra lessons . I need REST . So , tomorrow ending school at 12.30pm . phew . im gonna stay in school like obviously . sheesh . PRACTICES. Oh yes , icannot text people , i sosad , no la . FAKE . People actually sad i never reply them . hahahahha . TOO BAD , end of the month i top up la babys , loves , skandals , husbands . Oh yes , i wanna meet ALOT of people soon . I know wednesday i meet hyddy ! . AWWW .

You know im hanging on to these hopes i thought that will come true . Im sorry if keep on making you wait , you know me don't you? I hope you understand . I love him more than you , I just wanna be friends , cause im happy with all that i have now . I dont need a commitment just yet .

I miss you , but i don't wanna show it .

2010-07-23T08:39:00.000-07:00

Hello peepos Oh yes , you must be wondering who is nomad , which is my fiancee and syak's skandal . hahaha , that is him , i know , he is hoooooot ! melts.So , today school was superduper fun !:) . Had NDP rehearsal , and saw eddy ! . SHHHHH . Oh yes , went home late from school for already 3 days ?! . TIRING ! . But i kinda like it ! . I swear i don't wanna wash my sweater please ? Got his smell , wow . K , i sound crazy . Tomorrow meeting dayah baby and babygirl for one on one practice !. Sorry im not free to meet anyone . Sorry to , hazreen , syuaidi , zaidi , yan , lann . Im busy nowadays . SORRY AGAIN ! :) . I miss nomad ! heee , i miss ____ to . At school like he like , so , like , AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! heeheehee . Before i go crazy i better stop . Oh yes , coughed out blood AGAIN -.- . urrr ?????? . Meeting hyddy on wednesday and i jumped up and down looking at her name in my school oral list !! ahhhh !!! and bella too !! :) . wow , im sure eddy miss them too . MEMORIES!! . awww , im tired , blog again poodles! oops , humans! :) . XOXO .

i dont wanna show to you that i miss you cause i wanna get over you , get it ? i don't wanna like you anymore.

Restless as always .

2010-07-22T08:40:00.000-07:00

wani and me <3333
School was extremely extremely fun . ME LOVE SCHOOL ! . HEEHE . So yeah , started of getting scolded in the morning . -.- . whatever . Other lessons was like so great . I concentrated in maths?!?!?! . WOW . Oh ya , i "cabot" my principal of accounts for the last 15mins , me and faiz were bored to death so me , faiz , edwin , eugene , jieyou went to the canteen. Always like this , im the only girl . HAHAHA . My husband (nomad) was good enough to stay in class . And did i mentioned that nomad got the same phone as me?!?!?!? Just for the sake of me , i love you nomad ! hahahaha . we so the very sweet . Last period was geography . sat with wan sulaiman , my cute brother ~~ heehee . He ah , so stress , i more stress than him . HAHAHA . Went for elective module after school at 2pm and had fun with wani baby ! <3 , the only girl i can trust in class , for now . Oh other class i can trust alot , but not my class . susah . Wani permed and i straightened my hair , i look cikalapehsia . -.- . hahaha , after that as usual met up with my ELC , for dance , learned new dance steps for song called kara . nice! but so faaast . slacked with ELC , oh yes , and wani is with izzat too . wani learn golek golek on the floor . hahahahaha . Oh yes . FADHIL ,APHIZ , SAM and more i forgot who came by to see us . heeee , actually , k diam la . Chill la , joking! hahahaha . i think . Went home after that to take my medicine cause i vomitted blood in school . DIE . hahahaha . RAWR RAWR~~ . Oh ya , sholihin so sweet , i asked him , what if i were to be dead ? he said , "aku akan mintak nk angkat mayat kau laaa , tk boleh lupekan org mcm kau sey" awwww~~!! sweetkan , nana , kat diena almost cried , heehee . I asked only whaat you guys . sighs . dont sad please ? i loveyou . ahhh yes , i did not see eddy in school ? i think ah ? forget sey! hahahahaha . I am meeting hyddy next thursday in my school because she is taking her oral in my school , cannot wait to meet her!!!!! i miss her! awww , okay loves , till here , bye! xoxo.

please , stop being so stupid will you . come on .

A little better

2010-07-21T09:44:00.000-07:00

(i miss my baby boy , syaizstar zulhairi)

Hello babies . I did not turn up for school in the morning as i had fever but i went to school for elective module cause i know wani bby is gonna be alone . So , went to school for elective and did nail art . my nails are in hot pink ! . Same as wani baby ! . So yes , ended at 5 and had dance rehearsal at school hall as im gonna perform on NDP . hahahahahahaha , NDP sia . So , stayed in school with my empire ladies and oh yes , hairul will be joining us!!!!!! . I saw eddy in school having npcc , and i think he saw me watering plants in school , omg so malu . HAHAHA . Finished around 6pm and went home lor . Gossip about one girl with my lilmissy , meand her getting close . hahahaha . We were both alone at home so played monopoly and hide and seek , i know , childish but shut up , my lil missy is still in primary school , what do you expect me to do ? Talk about boys ? no way . haha . But weird thing she kept on mentioning zaidi ? HAHAHA . eh zaidi , my lil sis obsessed with you ! hahahahah . Oh ya , im feeling a little better but still vommit blood every single night , fever and heart ache every morning and afternoon . booohoo . But , i will try and hold on to this pain as much as i can okay ? Thanks to my love ones for caring . Oh yes , bestfriend and second bestfriend , im sorry for everything , i miss you both alooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooot ! :) . Update soon , xoxo .
i got no more crush on anyone and no one has a crush on me anymore .

Not ready to be with all

2010-07-20T06:04:00.000-07:00

Hello people , school was normal , i had people that kept me going through the day . Was kinda moodless and had settle all misunderstandings . I don't want to think about school , so yeah , enough . This is gonna be such a short post . I wanna go to bed soon anyway . I miss watching the nanny . SIGHS , Things is starting to change , well , i want it , i get it . This is what i want . right ? I have to get use to all this then . Don't text or call me . Even if you do , i can't reply , cause my prepaid is low and , im still not preapred , or ready ? i dont know . xoxo .
i want the best for me . i missyou , i do , really , i do . i miss you , but im sorry that things will change okay ? like you said , distance don't ruin relationships .

It won't be long .

2010-07-19T09:47:00.000-07:00

For everything , thanks to my loved ones for caring . Kat , diena , nana , syai , miera , wani , faiz , zaidi , nomad , dayahh , peeqaa , miza , iqa , erin and more . I know for the smallest reasons what im gonna do is dumb . But please , i just need sometime alone . till when ? I don't know , but , if im ready , i will text you . I promise . I just think that i can go through all these alone . Because i dont wanna be a burden to any . I loveyou guys fr caring . Im still gonna lead the same life , but a lil diff from last time cause i have new objections since all these happened . I can't go out as always , and perhaps , not anymore ? . But i will , to some , i can't meet you anymore , perhaps few months later ? . Im sorry if you are pissed off but , its the best for me . xoxo .
i miss my 2nd bestfriend damn much too but i hope he understands , i wanna be alone .

Picture perfect memories

2010-07-16T09:59:00.000-07:00

from left to right ( Ayil brother love , diena bbygirl , izaad brother love , faiz brother love , sam bestest , nomad baby , me. )
Hello breathing creatures . So , friday , what should i update about ? Oh yes , school . I had fun in school , especially with edwin , faiz , nomad all around me that can make me smile and not think about my problems at all . ESPECIALLY YOU EDWIN ♥ . thank you so much . So , yes , school was fun expect for , i was sick , so is my bby nomad . awww~~ , my skandal olay , i sayang him . hehe . GET WELL SOON B! . Oh lessons lessons , mrs teh is teaching geography now , better cause i did not fall asleep . HAHA . After school went to meet baby boys and girls including my empire ladies in the canteen . I don't wanna talk about what happened in the canteen cause yes i went there shouting to a person i hate most! . He and she is so , ugh , i don't know , pathetic much . I was suppose to stayback and i meet my counseller but , i was really tired andi was sick and it was raining! . NO MOOD . And dad texted me to go for my doctor's appoinment anyway . Reached home , sleep , yeah , the usual stuff i do . Went to doctor then with dad and babygirl , dad giving a lift so good , i feel better already , hahahaha , fake! . -.- . joking(im not gonna update about my visit to the doctor :( ) . Reached home did nothing , texted hazreen and the usuals i text with everyday . I was really upset and i texted nomad , and he told me to be patient and he said "loveyou" . thanks b! . You the greatest , but i got the best , the bestest also . hahahaha . k shut . So , now , my phone credit is 20 plus , i gotta save till end of the month , i don'tthink i can do it , but , who cares ? hahaha . Tomorrow having kendarat at bangkit , im not well to do it , but i have to anyway . So , yea bby loves , till here then , me loveyou . xxoo .

For everything honey , you make me vulnerable .

Problematic bitches

2010-07-14T08:24:00.000-07:00

Oh hello readers .awww~ OLD PICTUREEE!!!!! HAHAHAHA..So , today , school was kinda fun , but i was really lazy idk why ?!?!?! . LOL . I was really quiet in maths lesson as i had no mood at all , because of someone . ugh , whatever . Last period was social studies and yes , ms chong did not turn up ? wow. I had fun talking to nomad bby , and yes faiz made my day by telling me a joke about rebonding..urrrr , pubic hair . hahahahah! it was hilarious that me ,edwin and thanesh coludn't stop laughing . So , the first class maths students had to stay back cause they fought with a trainee in class the day before . I was there , and she said the four letter words to us . F*** . Well , everything was solved today as she apologised for her wrong doings . I STILL DISLIKE YOU EVEN IF YOU ARE NOT MY MATHS TEACHER CAUSE YOUR FACE IS DAMN IRRITATING . UGH . So , i waited for my honey to finish meeting the teachers , oh yes , my honey is nana . Don't get me wrong , she is my friend . HAHAHA . Went to canteen , talked to ayit about his problems , talked to kat , diena , babygirl , mizzy . ALL LA! hahaha , hug like so many years haven't met . Well , everyday hug so , its a daily routine . Oh , saw that cute boy !! hahahah , omg! . eeeh . k shut up . TEMPORARY CRUSH , he younger than me laaaa~~~ . Oh ya , to that bitch , i wanna slap your face real soon , you gonna get it , youwanna see the old me , yes , you are gonna see the old me , and many don't want that to happen , but , yes , you areso going to see the old me . I dont care if teachers know , your whores know , or whoever , im just gonna give it , if you are over girl , and yes , I HATE YOU AND YOUR PUNDEK BRO LA SIAL . Enough about ugly son of a bitch , so yes , i reached home early went out with family for awhile , awww . Daddy so cute cut hair , my daddy maaah~~ :) . Reac home , sleep , and mom wokeme up cause she felt my body was warm and i was having fever . Bestfriend is too . AWW , I LOVE YOU TOO BESTFRIEND THANKS ! :) . WOW , long or what my post?!?!?!? . HAHAAA , okay peers . ALL DONE . update soon , xoxo .

i think my fav boy is trying not to be mad at me , im sorry about saturday or even friday . sighs , why am i so busy ? i hate my life ..

PURRFECT BORING DAY .

2010-07-12T07:50:00.000-07:00

Hello wonderful people . Oh yes , i did not turn up for school today , but i did not watch world cup . HAHAHAHA . I waited for the score and spain won , yay ! . hahahaha , i am damn happy , woohoo . Most of my ex supported holland ? lol . Okay i should not blog about world cup or fav boy later say irritating . Oh yes , it was a boring day at home . i should have gone to school . HAHAHAH . regret . I ate alot of butter cookies at home , and ended uo vomitting it all out at night , now my stomach feels so bad . :( . sorry stomach . Oh yes , having elective module tomorrow , make up , to pe kong again . So , yes . i wanna watch movie with zaidi on friday but wonder if he want ah ? BBY TXT AKU !!! . hahaha , oh ya , he's my fav boy , a fav FRIEND , cannot accept the fact , your problem la~~~ . hahahaha , i dont live to please you . chey . So , ya , till here lovess , me love you . xoxoxoxoxo .

you the best i ever had .

One way love .

2010-07-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

Today was a short day for me , went out with daya and bbygirl to far east . Had fun , did buy some things and yes ,eat , i want vommit already . Dayah has a small body but big apettite . So , yes , short post , i lazy wanna blog , sorry kay bby ? My mom is such a nagger today and i can't stand my big brother , for today . I wanna post something to favourite boy zaidi :

You know i got your back no matter what ? we fight for like alot of times , and there was once we let go of each other but we became friends back , for a reason , i love you deep down cause you've been there for me , sucha good friend , and i promise , i will try not to hurt you .

And tomorrow school ends late , wow . I hate it . Fuck . Im over it . Okay . HAHAHA. Stupid fool , jealous over my favourite boy for what , up to you , hahahahaha , ALL I NEED IS FRIENDS . Bye baby loves . xoxo.

fuck your mind la .

Tenth of july ♥ .

2010-07-10T12:13:00.000-07:00

Hello dearest loved ones .
Yesterday met up with my hunnaaaah ! ZAIDI .
He's dressing getting lazier , change already ! . hahaha .So yes , met at cck interchange around four plus. Oh , before zaidi reached there was someone who came up to me and asked me to dontae ? I was about to when he asked me , how old i was , and i said sixteen . And he said , i thought you were 20, -.- . He shook my hand and said thank you cause only 21years andabove are allowed to donate . hahahaha . Anyhu , went to jurong point , we bought hand bands but , this time not identical , BUT , still buy together one for memories and same shop! hahahaha . Then , went to eat at long john , funny thing when the person asked me i want chilli or ketchup i think so long , zaidi also fed up with me . HAHA. Ate , talk , talk , ate , wow , we sat at long john talking for like hours ? maybe an hour or two ? So much to talk about. Oh ya , went to lot one and met up with cousin for awhile .
(skip the sad angry part please )
Cousin went home , me and zaidi slacked slacked slacked there , talk , take pichas , gossip , saw someone zaidi unexpected , sing , someone dance . -.- . hahahahaha , funny , AND FOR THE FIRST TIME , GREEN TEA MADE ME SICK . Around 12am plus , we say bye bye . :( . SAD . HAIYA . When can meet that best boy again ? SOON . HAHA . He bused home i cab home . yay . Okay dearest , that's all i got , will be meeting daya today afternon , xoxo .

You are sstill my number one crush even if it looks like its not you , its you . :)

Because the reason is stupid .

2010-07-05T09:27:00.000-07:00

A life lived in love will never be dull.

You made me hurt & loved.

You are special.

Cause never did someone made me fall so hard for someone .

You made me fall hard for you .

Because you were diffrent .

And you zaidi , was the first biggest crush i ever had .
And i admit , i started to love you.

But for now,

I gotta let go of all my feelings , cause i don't wanna worry you no more.

or make you mad .

Welcome to my heart , second bestfriend ♥.
(we shall take caution.)

Stupid Dumb me .

2010-07-04T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings .
How was your day ? Mine was really fine , not! -.- . Whatever . So , i went to lotone to have dinner with dad . yummy , i had tom yam ban mian again . HAHA . addicted . So , was texting-texting with ahbeng , icannot concentrate eating sia ! CB HIM ! . hahahaha , there was ne he texted , "eh nui er ni chai na li??" isay i not your daughter stupid , he said , ok la you my grandmother la!!! -.- . HAHA . My crush did text me , but , aiya , nevermind...he got so many crush liao , so ya , that broke me spirit for awhile you know . BAD MOOD . Met that ahbeng after dinner with dad . Stupid go see through my pictures . My crush folder somemore!!!
He : your bf ah ?
me: no la .
he : then ?
me : my crush la , kpo sia kau ! hahahaha .
he : then my picture dun have ?
me : i dont love you so shut up la!!
HAHAHAHAHA , then all the way he bad mood . Eh , i stick to one la , sorry la sayang him okay ?
cute la tuu . So ya , atleast he cheered me up . So , im not sure when can i meet my cute crush urgh!!!!!
I miss him too much la , so sad right . Kay la , i try not to miss him so much la though i will miss him la , ok i talking crap sia seriously . OK bye , i dont know what to update , i no life when no plan . haha .
xoxox .
to you :
wo pu sihuan ni , wo ai ni , ni tong pu tong mah ? wo pu che tao wo yao shuo semo , wo chende hen siang ni , ni shuo hen tuo nui ren si huan ni , wo yao ku liao ley , haiya , wei se mo ? wo de sing hen tong. :(

Oh my , two weeks .

2010-07-03T23:02:00.000-07:00

Hello humans , oh yes , im updating my blog ! . haha . Oh ya , as you can see from my title , im counting down two weeks till i can meet my crush . i miss like like so much and too much . So , yesterday went study with iqamarishka and priscilla . We had fun , though its a study date . Someone boyfriend came . funny . haha . Walked around causeway as we left civic library at 9 . Went to eat at banquet . yum yum . Wow! . haha , so , i bragged about PURR how much i miss him blah blah blah . priscilla miss her love too , iqa ? idk . hahahaha . CUTE . So , met to meet the boys and i reach home around 11 plus ? wow . hahaha . study ~~ indeed , Today i have no plans , staying home la , wow . Imma goodgirl okay. One day out enough la . k bby loves , till here then , love you , xxoo .

i miss crush saying anyway , i miss his voice , i miss his nonsense , i miss when he says he miss me , i miss talking to him till morning comes up , i miss his stupid english accent , i miss the way he calls my name , i miss where he always calls me up , i miss him , so much , from the bottom of my heart .

I will hang on no matter what .

2010-07-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

It seems that this few days my peers and i have been having problems on love . Well , edwin , im here for you, you sit beside me , and when i saw you cry it really hurts me to see a guy cry that bad, you must really love her , i know how you feel edwin , cheer up okay ? . So , to day school was kinda okay , fun , but sad ? Idk . Well , 3 days of reat , and i still havent met my crush , oh god , i miss him alot . Next saturday , i really hope i can meet you , SIGHS , why la you call me flirt ? Am i really ? I just have alot of friends that love to joke around , you know i love you and only you PURRYS . :) . Now , at frina baby's crib . So , this blog is gonna be kinda dead since school has reopened , but i will try my best to update okay honey ? And oh yes , empie ladies will stick together okay ? I LOVE YOU GIRLS . Anyway , i sense that .. urmmm , never mind , im so stressed out about school , haha . Teachers oh teachers . LOOKING for me for my homework, hahaha , Must run sia . Okay bby loves , i got to go now , love you , mwah mwah mwah! :)

no matter how deep it hurts , i would still hang on , even if i have to hold on on a single thread .

School , i love you .

2010-06-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

Hello cuties and enemies .
Let's blog about today . I went to school ALONE as usual cause i do not have a boyfriend in school ! haha , ok that is lame . So , yeah , reached school , meet nana baby ! We are so frustrated that our recess is changed to 10am , it sucks big time love! . So yes , school was a long day today! But it was fun ! Why? Edwin keep smacking the back of my chair which hurts my butt , wan sulaiman keep on talking nonsense , they kept pulling my hair . We talked about thanesh ! hahahhaa . Sometimes pity him always get bully from me , edwin and wan . Oh yes wan , thanks to me you no need go parade square ah , i covered you , syg kau! . sheesh . hahaha . Oh , english lesson was really fun i get to text cookie , wah , like i reply so fast , teacher look at me smile only,bodoh . -.- . haha . Then , POA . OMG ! I SLEPT! hahahaha . MS HEW IS SO BORING! I MISS MR.CHANG! :( . Nvm , must endure lah okay ? . Oh then it was maths ! wow , i sleep also , hahaha , no life sia rawr . Then it was assembly which was dragged till 2pm ? Having elective module next week and i am taking project makeover course . WEE~! cannot wait! . So ya ,slacked in school with honey bees , and "someone" accompanied me at canteen , aww , he's sweet but sorry not interested already la okay ? Thanks FRIEND . So ya , then PURR called , ok ok , then suddenly because of connection make us like fight like that . I was shocked you know he suddenly like so angry at me . PURR , i did not change okay ? i promise im still the old me , its just school which only takes up 6hours , i promise i did not change , I LOVE YOU , and , i always remember you , if i never think of you also when i sleep already ley! See , aku da obsessed dgn kau! hahahaha . Da , i sound like a stalker already . -.- . He called me that too , so shh! . hahaha . Anyway , can anyone please forward time a month fasteeeerrr ??!?!?!? haha , I MISS KUCING ! :(
Oh ya , im not going to school tomorrow , why?SELUA PE HILANG! hahahaha . booohoooo . Cannot play captains ball ! Must clean house , nevermind , one day only! ENDURE! . Ok sexy dudes and babes , that's all , bye love you , xoxo .

i love the way he says anyway ... :)

Could this get any worst ?

2010-06-27T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hello human-roids .

So , today was kinda okay for me . Babygirl treated me to macdonald and we were like talking and stuffs . Went home to eat durian and went out again to bbygirls house . Awww , we are like crazy bitches . hahahaha , funny sia she , and she has a great voice okay . So , as you know im pretty excited for school actually , but something brings me down . AWWWV , i cannot meet my crush for like a month ? like seriously ? i was so sad when he texted me that . Cannot on the phone , cannot meet . CANNOT TEXT ALSO . DIE DIE DIE . My heart shattered into a million pieces cause i tend to get sick when i miss him . OMG . This is ridiculous i know . And worst , i cannot online in the afternoon ?!?!?!?! . This sucks really . OMG . i WANT TO MOVE TO CCK LA PLEASE ? :( . MUMMMMMY!!!!!!! . I am so sad , fed up and SAD!!! . I dont even know how to describe this sadnesss!!!!!!!!!! . Ohno . Im blogging like stupid . Well , its getting late , i shall stop till here , love you and crush , I MISS YOU ALOT I FEEL LIKE CRYING SIA COOKIE!!!!!

i miss you saying you miss me .

This girl hates love for sure .

2010-06-26T09:27:00.000-07:00

There are things you don't want them to happened , but you have to accept . There are things you don't want to know , but you have to learn . There are people you can't live without , but you have to learn to let them go .So ,there's this boy , the way he laughs , make me smile , the way he talks gives me butterflies , everything about him just makes me happy . But for now , i believe that my first love never dies , i think its the chapter is gonna begin , again . This is confusing yet exciting , these chapters of my life .

All i need is you to need me .

Rafusicul 2010

2010-06-25T11:15:00.000-07:00

Hello baby loves!
Just came home from my dance competition , and karaoke night ! :) OMG , i had so much fun . So baaad , cookie tk dtg ! hahahahahaha . WE HAD MUCH FUN AND MADE FRIENDS WITH ALL THE DANCERS! OMG! THEY WERE SO CUTE AND ALL OF THEM DID A GREAT JOB! . I shall upload ALL pictures tomorrow cause ikashy and the others are prbably too tired too upload it all . I was so nervous just now and phew , everything felt kinda ok after it . HAHA . THANKS FOR THE MANY SUPPORTS !! Oh yes , bumped into loads of people !! awwwwwww , hugged , all missed each other . there were tears , everything was like awwwwwww!! .Bestfriend was there aww! took pichas with him , you all upload la faster la dehh ! haha . Then off too karaoke needed two rooms as there were many of us! :). We sing sing headbang jiwang like mad . Got video also sia ! hahahaha . ALL UPLOAD . Its was the best day eva! :) . My skandal say he wanna send me home then he hungry , he want eat , i tired like fuck already , i go home take cab , socks belanjaaa! aww! thanks!awwww! . Ok , i cannot wait for SCHOOL . omg yes , i said that , i miss it so much !! ugh!! i want my school girl life!! hahahahaha . I want to rest bbyloves , bye for now! xxoo .

DO YOUKNOW I MISSYOU LIKE HELL ??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?HAHAHAHAHAHA .

My last words to you cookie .

2010-06-23T09:56:00.000-07:00

Its not that i really really wanted to say goodbye , but then , at that moment of time i was really like confused and hurt , since your life is probably getitng better without me even as a friend , me here , just wanna wish you the best . My last words to you :

Zaidi , please remember to not always drink coke , its bad for your health , once or twice a day only okay ? Remember not to shout at your family members especially your mum if you have no mood or something . Learn to sleep early as school is reopening soon . Don't say that you will have no social life , just remember that all you have to do is do well in your studies and graduate with good results . Don't spent too much money on food okay , control your spending especially on food . Go less in eating butter , its not good . Go make new friends , im sure they probably will be a better friend then me . I hope everything in life goes well okay ? I want to see you smile the next time if i ever bump into you . And , love someone from who they are , and im sure you will believe in love again . If you are sick , stay home and eat your panadol cause i know panadol will heal you , please remember all this okay ? I really care about you and this is all my last advises to you . And , you are the best crush i ever had , thanks for everything . Any problems whatsoever , text me , i'll be glad of a help , or maybe not ? i love you , takecare . xoxo .

All we are left now are memories we can look back into and smile .

Its funny cause it hurts .

2010-06-23T04:41:00.001-07:00

Must me be this sad for you ?

2010-06-21T04:33:00.000-07:00

Hello . Yes , aint we cute ? awww . Today had briefing at bradell . Me , adayy , frina and bbygee . Oh yes , all dancers looked so cute , awww . HAHA . Qhairiq , hairul and shafie is part of thr organizer , and oops i have a crush on one of the comittee members oi! he is like so cute , and i like the way he put his arms around me . :) . k shh about that , its just a temporary crush okaay . So , the 4 of us took circle line mrt just to sleep . haha , and then me and bbygee head to lot one . Went to library . Umm , ya . i need to post something to niyuuuuut . :(

TO NIYUUUUUT :
Hey , dont think that no one is there for you , cause im here for you okay ? Are you running away from problems ? cause it is not a good solution at all . I MISS YOU . ALOT . :( Like you said you missed me. Well , i want to meet you soon . You know im always here for you okay ? i doubt that you think that way . please , text me . eventhough im going to be busy with my dance competition and stuffs , my mind wil always have you in it , cause me love you okay ?

WELL , thats all peepos , i'll update soon okay ? love you . xxoo

im so sad for you , do you know i even cried ? i care okay ? im here . :(

I miss your smile

2010-06-18T12:33:00.000-07:00

Hello , its 3am . I was asleep at 1am and was awakened by a loud crash , and woke up to check my text . wow , 10 texts? wow . hahahaha . Now on the phone with zaidi , awww . I miss his voice like so much . awwwwwwww~~~ . I am sick , ugh . Flu amd fever . HMPH . So , i have to wake up early for a dance meeting today . Around 10 am ? early huh ? Off to jp . Meeting crews . weee~~ . So , probably buying stuffs for dance competition . So , yes , till here then , gonna update soon . xoxo .

To niyuuuuut :
sorry i cant go out with you okay ? i make sure i will meet you soon and give you one big hug! Miss you! xoxo <3 <3

Melt my heart sooner or later .

2010-06-17T09:57:00.000-07:00

Konichiwa love !
It is 12.24am ! Im waiting for someone to online . 4 down , 1 more to go ! Today had practice near frina's house. It was kinda fun , and then WE were so tired that we decided to go to her house to have a break . I kept on playing tap tap revenge , justin bieber version ! wuuuuuuuu! . hahahaha . Ate lunch , and lie down on the sofa . Frina asked me to go to her room to sleep . Then i went in , omg the bed , water bed! FUUUH , if only i have boyfriend ah just now lay with me . HAHA , k diam . I was cat napping , and my phone ZzZzZzZz , VIBRATE LOR! .hahaha . Zaidi texted , so text text text , i cannot sleep . And eka said , "ala kesian nye rawr muke cute nk tido tk tido tido.." I say "kerana sayang~" Then eka say , "waaaaaah~!" hahaha , frina , i love your brother ! :) . HAHAHA . We had all the formations done , only remixing of songs!! . HMPH . NVM .

So , yesterday , i had fun using the laptop . FOR THE 1ST TIME I SAY I LOVE ONLINING ! K DIAM LA RAWR . haha . But , idk la , impossible la , friends better huh ? Then everybody ike nothappy , well , i also don't care what peoplesay la , they no life . HAHA . Bumped into mummy at the bus stop on the way home . Then she texted , asl tk jumpe _____ ? HAHAHAHA . KPO LA MUM , I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA . Reached home and i tweet tweet ! hahahaha . Daddy discharged liao ! phew!
sayang him ! mwah mwah ! . So , i guess , till here im gonna update love! LOVE YOU ! <3 <3
XXOO .

him-The reason i text you is because i saw you and him keep on posting hearts at fb , and i cant help myself , im really hurt , you said you loved me ? why are you doing this to me ?

me- thats the reason you texted me? just for this , ? come on . i did and used to love you , you hurt mee toooo deeep , and im not with him , stop believing in rumours laaa . its true i ___ and ____ him , cause he dosent hurt me more , he makes me smile more . even as a friend , he is a great guy .

Not gonna post all , but this is the main thing . hey , i missedyou , but , i just think ... idk , we have to talk . hmmmmph :(

All those love that kept me going .

Sometimes i don't get me at all .

2010-06-16T08:26:00.000-07:00

Hello peepos .
Im home from hospital , visited daddy just now and luckily he is fine now . phew . I miss him coming home yeah . So , today , had dance practice at cck . Finally everything is going ok . Only the song needs to be edited . I wanna thanks sherini sexy for combining it togetha , thanks hunny . So , im still not having enough sleep , im growing crazy , hell yeah i am . Was on the phone with zaidi yesterday night forlike 5 hours , fuuuuuuuh , so long ah ? Still somebody say not enough , walao , nyuuuuut or what ? HAHA . So , eventually , i still have to sleep even though for 3 hours , i dont mind , awwwwwww . Tomorrow ? Same routine , dance and then to hospital . I don't have a life , duh , im ten years old . HAHA . Sighs , sometimes i just don't get me , like ouh am gee , im being dumb , like seriously , so numb already my heart , well , im just a confusd girl piggy infront of the laptop that cant think straight , especially love llife . WHY ?! I need help , anybody , or everybody make me stop being so , idk , dumb ? I still think its a mistake , cause , it really is . The crush thingy , then love then confuse , like wth right me ? RAWR YOU ARE SO DUMB LA , SIGHS . I want to die la . You see la , now i no mood liao . Update son guys , love you , xoxo <3

TO YOU:

wo yao kao su ni , wo si huan ni.. eke ting , wo puchetao , wo ai ni ? wo de sing hen tong . Ni si huan eke nui ren , wo ? wo puchetao wo ai se sey , wo si huan se sey ?ni ? ken ta ? wo chende puche tao . wo yao ni che tao , wo chende chende si huan ni , wo iting si huan ni , wei se mo ? - Cause you fill my heart with love .

fourteen of june

2010-06-14T10:03:00.000-07:00

Hello babyloves !!
So , today had a slow dance practice with dayah and frina . So slow . HAHA . So , then skip that part . I met ZAIDI PURRYS !! <3 weeeeeeeeee . I MISS HIM LIKE HELL !! . Okay , im so the malu already , haha , miera forced me , OMG ! hahaha . IM SO THE MALU , K SHHHHH . ok i have to go . BYE BYE! <3

can i start to love you ? <3

Im awfully sick , why ?

2010-06-13T09:47:00.000-07:00

Hello earthlings .
Im still sick , yes . But , its kinda getting better. I hope its gonna get better as in really well . I have dance practice tomorrow , hmm , hopefully , it end earlier so i can meet zaidi . I miss him , oh my god so badly , i got sick cause i miss him you know ! . awwww~ . Anyhu , im having another blog which is with baby girl , go to my links and you know who she is . Doing a together blog with her ! yay me! . I mean us. Anybody elase wants to open up a blog with me ? I'd be glad to do so . <3 . So , i was running with a high fever today , boohoo :( . I was really weak and all i did was sing to myself , then cry , then talk to myself , i becoming crazier . -.- . IKR ? hahaha . Okay , i really have not much to post . love you readers! xxoo <3 .

Zaidi purrys , i really really hope
i can meet you honey , oh gosh
i missed you , so much! :(

Missing you , ZJ ♥♥♥

2010-06-12T08:11:00.000-07:00

Hello humanoids .( having fever , cough , flu , sorethroat ).
So , today was a moody day for me . Start from someone's text . Sighs , was i really harsh , im really sorry . I miss him , alot alot . So , got ready for dance practice and , me , ikashy , frina and dayah were the only ones . Bby girl and miza is at malaysia . miss them . So , as usual had our practice but ikashy went home first , then went to lot with daya and frina , we had a blast of laughter . like , they managed to cheer meup a lil . Sighs ~ . Then both of them went home and i went to meet aikau and zack , they kinda tried to cheer me up but still , only a lil . So , i really was moodless and wanted to go home . And , i was having fever . Out of a sudden . Im feeling so weak . Sighs ~ again . Then came home and lied down on my bed , still havent eaten . Too moody to eat . Too missing to eat . Too devastated to eat . Sighs~ . Im now blogging , like one sad piggy pouting infront of the screen . Help ? . I miss him until i sick . wow? . IDK . But , i just miss him . Hope he text me soon when he top up his phone . Thats all , update soon , xoxo / <3 .

I stopped loving him , and started liking ................. :/

I have a crush on you .

2010-06-11T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hello homies! :)
How are you guys doing ? So , today was a really boring day for me !:( . Stayed home the whole day , sleep with mum and cook with her all . Kinda fun though . There was suppose to be a dance practice today but many people could not make it , so we cancel it . Tomorrow me and ikashy have to ceograph steps for our yok goyang song . We are glad to have finish jaiho , when i grow up and sorry sorry . We should remix the songs soon . Phew , i've been having cramps all over my body due to practices . But , what to do ? I love dancing . HAHA . So yes , met sayed , awww , fyi , he is my big sister friend , please , we are friends , im having a crush on someone else , not sayed eh please . He keep on braggin about his motorcycle , irritating , serious . HAHA . And he bought for me candy floss ! cute kan !? haha , if you were not 21 , i would have considered you , k shh . Ok , i dont know why , im having a crush on him , omg , its like really impossible , god , help me please ? sighs . I CANNOT LIKE HIM .No way , like seriously no way . If he knows about this , we will never talk , forever , i think ? Only one soul knows , phew , so . I kinda miss him . AWW~~~.shhhhhhhh . This is for you , I MISS YOU! As if he know like that , haha .Okay im done here , loveyou , xoxo .

There's a reason why i like you.... <3333