An endless chattering of voices assaults my ears
Comments and inquiries washing over me in a wave of chaos
I turn away and search through my surroundings
Eyes sliding over familiar faces of students
Slowly my vision glazes over as my mind dozes

A moment of rest, day dreamy thoughts start to fill my sight

When suddenly my eyes snap back into focus
Narrowing in the face of a boy, one that i have seen before
In passing, the hallway, the yearbook....but never have i seen so clearly
That smile

Trying not to stare, my gaze keeps flickering back
Carefully attempting not to attract notice
But too enraptured to give up looking at him

Oops, he almost saw...or did he? I turned quickly to avoid it
but i'm not quite sure....and i'm not even positive i care.
A smile creeps slowly ontomy own face,
dimples appearing in my cheeks as i glance back again
His smile is contagious, impossible to ignore
I have never met him, but i want to know him.

A teenage crush
I’m almost afraid
Of buffer flies
With knives
They are slashing up my insides
First time it ever happened
One look and I was completely hooked
Nothing I could say
Nothing I could do
Couldn’t explain it
There is just something about you
Not the type of guy I would usually go for
I am scared to talk around you
Encase I make an fool of myself
But the silences they kill me......
My palms are all sweaty
And all I want is for you to glance my way

Flower petals

I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved. Then you came along... I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past.

At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being that we were both behind the screen. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself - damn it - I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore! I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you.

I have these feelings, deep inside
feelings that I have to hide
I don't know if he feels that way too
And I don't know what to do

So for now I'll love him from afar
One day I'll express how special you are
So until then I will retain this rush
And until then I'll contain my crush. 

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