walk with me

Walk with me, the path of life,

to explore every bend of the road
Enjoy with me the beauty of life,
along its wonderful way

Find comfort with me, in each other's arms,
when grief crosses our path
Find strength with me, in each other's strength,
when despair lies in wait


Laugh with me, a single true laugh,
to enlighten another's distress
Cry with me, a single true tear,
to understand true happiness

Cherish with me, the wonders of life,
as they need to be preserved
Rejoice with me, in the mysteries,
of what is yet to be

Find peace with me, in each other's souls,
when the world has gone insane
Find love with me, in each other's hearts,
until this life has been fulfilled

And when the path comes to an end
I hope we can say from within
We've known the beauty of true love,
our love came from within.

you leave , one came right away...

I know my limits , and stop saying i have tooo much guy friends to be with you . excuse excuse .Well , leave me i dont care , when you left , one came right away anyway . I dont wanna answer bullshits each time i go out w my friends . please oh please . is that the best excuse you can give ? imma flirt ? if i was one would i still be single ? would i still go out with many friends other that guys ? please , use you brain okay ? if you have one , cause im sure you dont . even if you have one , you never did use it huh ? if you never wanted it , all you had to do was say....


i'd like to make myself believe , that love existed with only truths in it..... (u)

great lies

(And this is ryan's new pic which he ask me whether its nice and i said "its damn cool ryan!")

I did a great job by pushing you away , i know a guy who is not good fr me when he hurted me . well , we're not even in a relationship right now and i dont care...ive got over my ex fr you which i waited fr 234 days , and i have great news , i got over you and him . Sorry wont cure aything okay ???? you just dont get it do you ? You know , i regret every single moment when i said i love it .
                                                                ps , you know i hate you .
                                                                                                               xoxo ,
                                                                                                                           rawrrita

BIRTHDAY IQA!

HAPPY BIRTHAY IQAMARISHKA ! <3

MAY ALL YOUR MISHES COME TRUE ! AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH GIRL! BIRHTDAY GIFT WILL BE GIVEN ON THE 5TH OF JAN , SORRY LATE ! PAY 4TH :)

You were never what i thought you would be , please dont be so over sensitive . boys.

and , i have to find a date on 31st , anyone ???

reached my limit

Baby where you ? you never text me the whole day . I miss you . Call me okay ??? Im sorry fr what i said yesterday . Never mean it okay ? I love you , you know i do right?

Remember when you said , "i love you fr who you are lah sweety . dont worry..."

Till here , im ending this wait

To you , i love you , do you even realise that ? please , i know . and im definitely moving on now , i'll always remember you as the person who make me smile , ps , im gonna miss those times we had and , i'll always love you .Im ending this wait cause i just got to know it aint worth waiting any longer . Perhaps , i need time to even get into a relationship.

you used to me my world and my number one guy , but now he took your place in every single thing and i kinda hate it but somehow like it . yknow what i mean ?

231 days ; will i end ?

Hey i missed you , where ever you are, i wanna see your face , i wanna talk to you and hear your voice . Even though we are not together , ps , i just miss you for no particular reason , i miss you , eddy .

Meeting sweety fr breakfast at 9.30 today! yay! yes yes , i love him . hahahahah.

promise me you are happy okay ? then i am.(for the person in the first paragraph).

Ryan Sullivan :)

ryan's old hair , he already cut it . :(

Hey peeps , see that guy over there , he's a friend from facebook and yes , he's from america! hawt aye ? Too bad , hes so far away . Chatted w him at fb few moments ago . but sadly his mum told him to clean his room so we couldnt chat fr long . :) .

me> hey ryan !

ryan> sup?

me> just bored .

ryan> yeah , me too .

me>hahaa .

ryan> is sinagapore fun ?

me> ya , kinda . not so many places to go to .

ryan> alrighty , wanna know somethin ?

me> ???

ryan> youre my first singapore friend ! :-)

me> thats a shock ! hahaa

ryan> lol

ryan>oh god , i got to go now .

ryan> my mums nagging .

me> why ?

ryan> i have to clean my room !

me> ouh okay then ! takecare ! :)

ryan> will definitely miss chatting with you syaheraah .

ryan>alrighty , takecare .

ryan> and youre cute ! :-)

me> awww , thanks , talk to you soon !

(i typed this whole conversation out from facebook ! )

So, finally, i never felt this happy before yknow! i got to go too , takecare peeps !

226 days / fun

Everything was never as it seems , ps , 226 days still waiting....

i know you know , that im sorry , i never meant to hurt you . <3

225 days

Sometimes love comes around , when it gets around , somehow its gonna knock us down . I wish you were who i thought you would be ,its like i keep on waiting at the back of the line every single day... i close my eyes as i reminicse your heart surrounded by mine...thats love , you never get anything you expected it to be...

220 days

I talked , laughed, joked in many ways . I give you advises that would probably put all your pain away . You're just stubborn what can i say ? Perhaps she still loves you, you should give it a try , cause me here , dont wanna see you cry . I care , i worry , cause the truth is , i still love you whole heartedly. This 220 days i can take it , but will it end in a waste one day ? I promised i swore , its just that it hurts more and more . I know you know , can you at least say something , i just dont want the 300th day to come and i still keep on bragging . Everything i say or typed is all bout you , why you ? i dont even know the reason too . I dazed and dreamed of all the times we fought , and i even giggled about it with that thought . As i went by memory lane , i took a stop and cries , cause there was when 349 was not alive . It ended w a huge misunderstandings , i never wanted it to happened but alll those rumours came and you never trusted me . I cried many days , and loud , so that you can hear my cries out loud . But you never heard it, cause another she came in your way . She was preety , and perhaps better than me , and now i know it was never about your aunty . Those beautiful eyes beat mine , and the lovely figure she has was such a shine . I was happy for you , but sadly i know i was heartbroken all this days . And i even heard you say , i dont care . That was when you stabbed me so deep , but still my feelings ere to deep to release it . I have no idea why was it so strong now than before , is it true when people say that love comes and go anyway ? I wanna proof that saying is wrong , how about one day you and me proof it wrong ?
I know you would say i dont know what to say . well, nevermind its okay . Im just typing all ive been wanting to say , and last but not least , i love you anyways .

I want that perfect fairytales where there are happy endings anyway... <3

219 days

If I saw you today and you told me you've really changed
If you told me you were sorry and it kills you to know how much you've hurt me.
If you begged or my forgiveness and you wanted to make it up to me by making me only happy from now on,
Nothing would be something you've never promised me before
But would I be able to turn you down?

If I told you yes and that I've never stopped loving you, and how I've been wishing every day that you'd never left
If I took you back again and forgave ally our mistakes, would I be making a huge mistake of my own?
Would you love me and leave me like so many times I remember?
Would you leave me broken hearted and confused?
Would I be mad at myself for believing your lies, but even still, be wishing you were by my side?

But if I turned you away and finally chose to love me first, instead of loving you so blindly
If I told you I was done with you and all your stupid sorry's because I already know how it would end
Would it be the only time that these were your honest feelings?
Would I be turning down what I've waited for, for years?
Would this be my one chance to make you mine forever
And if it was, would I be able to tell?

If you were being honest, and I just couldn't see, and I told you I couldn't be with you
Would I find someone who could make me as happy, loving me with everything they had, as you made me never loving me at all?

I wish I knew the answers to how it all would go
But even more than that, I wish that I could be as happy as I was when I never had you .

Ps , you know i still do , and i know you read my blog every single day .

217 days

Remember when we were so in LOVE?
I do, because you were the one I could trust.
Remember when you would hold me tight?
I do, I didn't want you to let go I wanted it to last all night.
Remember when we use to argue about the stupidest things?
I do, because when you got mad it was the cutest thing!
Remember when our love was so strong?
I do, because i thought nothing could go wrong.
Remember when you said you loved me?
I do, I had a great feeling come to me.
Remember when you said you wouldn't lie?
I do, because when i found out all i did was cry.
Remember when you broke my heart?
I do, because you tore my world apart
Remember when you said if we break-up we can still be friends?
I tried but you thought i wanted you back so we had to end.
I took you for granted, I thought I had you,
But I didn't instead I ended up loosing you.
You treated me wrong after we broke-up,
How could you?, all i ever wanted to do was make up.
This is the last time you'll hear from me,
Well, unless you be a man and apologize so we can agree.
Life's too short we live what we can,
Just remember call me if you need a hand.

seventh month four days

Im really pissed off w some peple right now . They make my mood go down down . gawsh , i did not upate fr two days . laaaaaggggging . I got a text msg from dearest diena ysterday :) . She said she wont go to sentosa if i dont on the 16th . i promise her i will go cause everyone i know and loves going . i really cant wait to meet her! :) . so , no excuse , i requested off on the 16th and on 27th . WHY 27 ? IM GOING TO SINGAPORE IDOL FINALS! of course baby girl got the tickets cause she and sezairi are cousins!!! great huh ? i know . im going with aisyah , adila, li ying and of course baby girl . well , im still confused , though this feeings are still strong , i dont know whether i should continue or perhaps give up ? i dont understand this at all yknow . i dont even know myself . im confused . somebody help me . And i miss you , every single day . Its the 7month and four days im waiting fr you . :(

ps, peeqa and zai one month coming ! love you guys ! last long . and when i say 1314 , i mean it .

baby girl sickk!!

Im now w dearest girl peeqaa . okay she is sick now . pity , haiya. Im at teckwhye mac using lappy . Gawsh , im so bored at home . so decided to go down using internet lorhh . Today i woke up early in the morning to go to yewtee to meet up my mum to have breakfast . then headed to lot one and finally bought a dress fr crew outing! haahaa . Headed home , and guess what ? i headed to lot AGAIN with my sis , and got a manicure!!!! wee! hapyyy sia . wtv . i got my nails black in color while my sis blue . chey , colour! then window shop . okay , im gg shopping w sis tomorrow . i wanna buy that leapord skirt and the minnie tee!!!! or the omg lol , cause omg wtf is sold out . haahaa . okay , enough , im tired to type . bye .


TAKECARE PANTAT PEEQA!

I know many things changed

Hey there , i swear i love my new color hair!. And im happy cause i finally bought a lappy! gooood . hah, i skipped work today , shucks . okay rudy , im sorry abt that . i was so sleepy . heee . Slacked w peeqaa and li ying at night market at yew tee yesterday . it was quite boring! like wth . Okay , eddy and me have a really BIG misunderstanding to settle . Sorry ah d , i didnt knew she was really so shiok sendiri . And i keep laughing about the "dear" thing siaa ! hahaa. kekek . Just be patient la kaaay ? haaha . Continue about yesterday . :) okay , slacked with kc , but then he went home as he was tired . duuh, manager , work morning till afternoon sia . of course tired . :) we slacked till ard 10 and went home . shoooooot . haahaa . when i wanted to go home ,somebody was like , "i want go see "d" first . haahaa . okay okay. So , im freaking happy that the crew outing is compulsary and every crew has to goooooo! haahaa , so eddy and mimi , you must go! idc! haaha! lol . Crew outing will be at ECP!!! i swear im gonna take pictures w all each of you!!! heee . okay, i gtg now . And akid , you takecare okay ? imy . :(

im sorry if i was never a good freind to you guys , but i miss you guys so much and you know that .. :(

backxcz

Peeps im back frm , only some people know . okay , i miss you all. i'll try to update as son as i feel better okay ? i cant make it on 3rd. sorrry guys . and crew outing with mcdcrews , ill try peeeps. 28 ? im going cause qais,aisyah,liying is going!! and , my beloved stepmther belinda . husband eugene and son earnest! ily ! and iqa,mizzy,frina,erin,izad,fyrz,diena,sam and the others . i miss you all .


ps, im still curious .

love?

Someone asked me what is love
is it good, is it bad
is it awesome, is it terrible
I honestly didnt know how to answer them.
I finally decided love is the most complicated of all emotions
Love is kind
Love is harsh
Love is wonderful
Love is terrible
Love is a cure
Love is a sickness
Love is LOVE
Love is hate
Love is meaningful
Love is pointless
Love shows the best in people
Love shows the worse in people
Love makes us speak truth
Love makes us lie
Love understands everything
Love confuses everyone
Love builds your life
Love tears your heart down
Love makes you smile
Love makes you cry
Love makes us cuddle
Love makes us hit
Love makes the world go round
Love makes the world go crashing down
Love makes things simple
Love makes things impossible
Love is always worth it
Love is never worth it
Love makes us smarter
Love makes us stupid
Love is enlightening!
Love is BLIND
make love not war
make war out of love
Love encourages
Love scares
Love is peaceful
Love creates fights
Love is soothing
Love is tough

...and above all
Love is always worth it
because you become a better person
everytime you love someone
from the simplest caring for a friend
to the deepest desire to love someone til the world ends
from the unconditional love of a child
to the complicated love of the gods
there is...no meaning to love
love means...everything

No matter how much it hurts you, or makes you cry
tries your spirt, and splits your soul.
Love is always worth it...because what doenst kill you
makes you stronger
And however long it takes
you will be, a better person because you lived, though love.
Werent afraid to make mistakes, choices and try again.
And...above all, loved someone no matter what people thought.
You would die for that person...but you would also live for them.
That...is the true meaning of love...

Trying to move on , trust me .

You made me cry...

You tore me apart..

You left me in tears..

You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..

I guess it was me..

for love can't be forced..

Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..

now that i know..

Because for some reason..

my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..

to get over you..

but you make it so hard..

with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..

but i've got nothing to gain..

just sorrows..,tears..

and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..

reality came too..

It was the day i realized ..

I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU

Why oh why ?

Why can't I forget you?
Why can't I get you out of my head?
Why can't I stop crying?
Why do I feel dead?
When we were together
I felt so alive,
and now I don’t even know
if I can survive.
I know you've moved on,
because we haven't talked in a while,
but I wont let you see me cry
I'll just put on a fake smile.
Just answer me this,
did you really love me?

I want to keep it to myself, can i ?

I have feelings of love for the guy I see.
Does he love me too, what does he think of me?

I wish I could tell him he makes me whole, but I'm afraid to say
what's deep in my soul.

I don't want to lose him, for I would be alone,
and some days I just can't wait to hear his voice on the phone.



He does certain things to make me feel loved,
some days he wants to be alone and my heart is shoved.

I want to feel as though I am his safeguard,
the one he can come to when things get hard.

I will always be there to help him along,
and before we met I wasn't as strong.

I wish I could tell him what I feel inside,
but I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside.

Im lost , help ?

Somehow i knew , al those memories aint gonna come back. I dont know what dragged me into this.What i meant was, keeping in touch with you . I thought day and night , and sometimes even night till day .My mind is twirling . I didnt knew what i wanted . The used to be or the already being . You wont understand a word im saying . I had fantasies all along , i knew for which , its never gonna come true . Whats the use for now ? What did i ever do making myself so into you?And why did i ever think of getting back at the first place? I dont know but i gotta tell you, loving you really hurts me , and probably i did have enough , but te pain just keeps on coming . And it hurts , really deep...How i wish you will feel how i feel..one word, it felt kinda "stupid".And i just dont want to play this getting over game no more , its eating me alive...Just tell me it aint gonna happened and i'll be gone forever..i promise , cause i know , ive reached my limit , im tied back...

everything was a myth...(L) 1314 .

like a freak i waited yknow .

Im so dumb . Okay , you know how i feel about you right ? I just need a reaction in you okay ? please oh please. So, i wanna highlight my hair soon . Soon , everything is gonna be a blast. I swear i wanna watch where got ghost but rental is so expensive! My heart shattered when the rental cost 28 bucks . I did text him this afternoon, turns out he had to work at 3 to 11 today. okay , how am i going to pass time till 11 ? I feel like a freak at times waiting fr your sms , and when i got it , i would shout , "aaarrrrhhhhh! he text me!! omgaaadd! " i would be like a freak! . Am i giving hopes to myself ? Should i just be with someone that already loves me ? I dont know, its just hard to move on yknow . Im just not happy without him . Okay pls, suddenly im craving for strawberry sundae. No mone with me , sighs, im broke . Really i am . So , im gonna watch 2012 on thursday , with "ehem ehem" giggles, no lah, with my brother . Cute huh ? still not sure yet though . Well, i don't have anything much to blog. So , okay , i love strawberry sundae !

i need you to say something...

True or dare ?

I swear im in love , no, not him. thats bestfriend.haahaa, some people know. well, still being as friends, i dont what the future will bring ?? so, im with my sister, playing y8 games! lol, im so bored! he is already asleep, so sad. i felt bad, he ask me to go to bed but im still wide awake. sorry hor manis! haahaa, hmm, im trying hard though . im so confused right now! SOS! . well , i got to go now. Im meeting bestie tmrw! meeting sheera! haahaa, a new friend from tampines! heehee. well, im quite sleepy now. goodnight love!
xoxo.

im glad we turn out back to square one . (^-^)

Still trying

Im still here updating fr you guys , im maybe deleting it soon. Maybe transfering school is a new start for me.Well, im still thinking about it.ALL asked me to stay, Its not up to me guys, my dad. Moving to woodlands , reason ? near my sister's house. STILL UNSURE. Well many questios are left unanswered . Well, if im going , you'll never see me on the first day of school next year. If i am, which i'll be retaining Sec 3 , you'll see me guys...Yesterday at PTC, met counsellor with my dad, both say its best i transfer cause i'll be able to concentrate more than thinking of problems and solutions i should not think about...Miss charlene, thanks fr he love talk we had, appreciate it so much..well peers, im going off to bed, im having kendarat in the morning. Just wait fr 2010 okay? only a few months away, dont be ad, im more discouraged, but im bck on my feet. :) somehow, still thinking of him..you peers are the best ive ever had :)

Forget what i texted you, its just what i've been wanting to say, i know you love her, be your best okay??? i'll always be thinking of you...i miss you ; so much than before .

1314, your'e always within my heart .

What's mine ?

Last post and photo :(
I had to make a choice . What's mine ? I dont know yet. Should i leave the person i love and the people who love me? I dont know whats the best...Should i move ? Aaron cried, Tyler cried. Probably im moving . You bbygees and peers have to write me a thank you message cause im always there for all of you. Well, this blog is going to be deleted one day, the day where im never gonna see you guys again...The day where im changing school and home . Im gonna change a new mw, and proabky a new life. Its ot confirmed yet, but i have a strong feeling, everything will end with a goodbye...I WILL MISS ALL OF YOU SO MUCH...THANKS FOR BEING THERE FR ME..


3I PEERS(AYIL,AYIT,AHPAI):
you guys blaja okayyy?? jgn ingt lepak jerrrrrr! jgn aja sam bkn bkn ! love you guys.... :(


SAM BESTFRIEND:
i LOVE you so muchh bestfriend. cant afford to be losing you. just be good when im no longer there fr you okay??? remeber, no sins okay?? i'll be worried....:(


EDDY :
well, i must say im gonna miss you too eddy . wish you all the best in life and your love. I must definitely see you be back with her if i can..okay?? :)

IQA,MIZA,FRINA,ERIN :
These girls are the best. Always there fr me . sad , happy no matter what... you gals deserve the best out of each other, i love you all...


FYRZ,DIENA,IKASHY AND OTHERS :
im gonna miss you guys joke..alot..miss hanging out.. miss those girls conversation everytime we went to lot one..

3FRANKLINS:
you guys do best fr sec 4!!!! gotta go sec 5 ayeeee? TTYL .

remember, 1314 is ; forever...

the fifth month

Ive been strong, what i meant was trying to be strong. Here i am, stupidly just waiting. My hope of you still loving me is slowly fading.I cant stand the pain anymore...I missed you and couldn't stop thinking of you...ive changed for the worst i know. it was all because of you.I drowned myselfs with countless of guys to forget you...I did not do well fr my exams cause all i could think of was you...my heart got broken , i was duped by you. But somehow i still love you. i know you were the one, cuse i could not get you off my mind fr already 5 months. I knew what i did was stupid, foolish. Even if you don't love me anymore, forgive of all the mistakes i did. you said what i did to you will never be forgiven. Why? is it so damn fucking hurting? Well, i was damn hurt by you too boy...Cause i realised the reason fr the breakup 5months ago was an excuse, never a reason. The reason is you're freaking in love with another girl...you hurt me more im just telling you..hurt me deep...til now, i cry everynight missing the damn hell of you...do you know that? I tried hard to stay strong but i always breakdown somehow...and, its all because of you....
No matter what , that feeling i had fr you 5months ago is still here deep down...its just that you never knew or realised cause there's another girl that has all of you now...

BFF <3 Acam-Rawr

I know! he looks diif right? i cant believe it either! omgad! what is that im wearing?? fashion police!! haahaa, lasty, me and bestfriend was like so out of trend. now? coollll babes! well peeps, im just posting a random update about my bestfriend and me since i have no photos of the slumber party which someone deleted! mizzaaaaa! haahaa, well, take a look !
Sam and rawr faces : take note of our faces during sec 1 and sec 3 .
tag me, who changes the most! me or sam?
i uploaded the photos, starting sec 1 . haahaa. enjoy!






This was in the middle year of sec 2. we were having our it lesson. as usual, we are just so bored that we had to take out our phones yknow. haahaa. so funny! we were all still sec 2 yet...hahaa





Raya last year! luckily atill have this photo! haahaa. memorable! he told me he like macam malu gytu nk take picture! haahaa. kekek. can know he shy btw he pose kann? haahaa, sam oh sam....





New year! haahaa. i had a dance performance at gombak and he and the others came all the way to see our dance! they liked it for some shaky reasons! haahaa. you guys are so sweet!




Bestfriend wanted to meet up cause he was sad. at pondok ehh this pic? ohh ya! he just broke up with his ex girlfriend! talked about it to let it go and guess what?? tk pasal2 we end up jalan2 pat pasar malam with izad and farah if i remember! haahaa.




At east coast! 2g reunion! ahaaa, daddy drove me , him and fyr there by car. haahaa, i had so much fun.i was pushed in the water cause it was my birhtday few days later.i got sabo in advanced la kann people??. miss 2g so very much mates. so muchh. especially when i get to seat with sam and fadhil in class. so fun! ^.^





Oh my oh my. apex day. ARRRRRGGGHHHHHH! Kenangan terindah ever . me and ex boyfriend! aiya, diam ahhh. sedih sia ! haahaa. Cannot forget what happened at my house after apex day! totally. syafiqa was there! hahaa, funny! yet, unforgettable :( daah, what the heck. he was the one who wanted to take a picture this time, "rawr, ambek gmbr." haahaa.




I just met my boyfriend (ex boyfriend) outside his class when i bumped into him at the boys toilet! haahaa, and i said, "sam, ambek gmbrrr!!!" haahaa.




He was walking pass my class when i grabbed him and thank god apit offer to take picture,haaha. rawr rawr, tuu pon boleh remember la kau ni..... :)









I hated to have to wear that thing on my head at that time. And yaaaaar! i remember this clearly. Before meeting sam and ayit and teckwhye macdonald, syafiqa had her oje at yewtee mac. i had a bigg tiff with ex boyfriend. a very bad one. so bad tht everything changes and he wanted a break up a few days later? sad ahhhhhh, ??? so? its already over! haahaa, just flash backs babes. and sam was doing his art assignment that time. i remember he drew triblas! haahaa. cute!






During fasting month. Every single day would slack at canel after we break fast. With other lovely and noisy peeps too! hahaa, fun, funny. ^^








This was during raya. As you can see, he is not wearing his traditional costume la kann?? haahaa, i went to his house with peers obviously.Haahaaa, load of pictures actually. i put up some randomly though. Haaa, and see our stupid faces there? thats our trademark faces! Had fun time at his house and i love his mother maggie mee goreng! urgh! omgad, im craving for it! haahaa




The latest photo of me and bestie. Okay, this was taken at school canteen. Well, havin our breaks after our first half of the paper. what paper was it?? i forgot. haahaa. dumb me.Well, thats all i have to post, i really had nothing to post about. Hope this dosent bored you to death aye mates?? ILY mates so muchyyyy aye.

Whats wrong with me?

Perhaps, what i did was a mistake. a big one. i don't love you, im forcing myself to do so. its just that i pity you fr all those sweet things you said. Im crying. perhaps i cant take control of this feelings any longer. Im sorry , i cant acept the fact that you love me. no way. its either im dreaming, or perhaps one day you would dump me or you are using me. im sorrryyyy ...very sorrryyy.... :(

MASAM/MANIS ! ^^