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i like yellow! do you ? HAHAHA!

i like yellow! do you ? HAHAHA!

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My saturday with a new friend (loves)

Dear cyber diary .
Wanted to go to wavehouse today but cancelled cause too lazy and me ,dayah , miera , aidil went to town instead for our usual routines . Well , the flea was great but didnt buy anything though , dont have any money with me .Well , had a great day and ,ade new fiends . Yana is her name and she is a awesome girl . Well , pictures are at her camera and i think she is asleep and not using her com now . HAHA . tired cute girl . Ummm , so ya , i miss crush so much . Well  , he dosen't have the same feeling i feel for him but its okay . NOT BEING ABLE TO BE WITH HIM IS NOT THE END . Well , there are many fishes in the sea right ? Well , going to scape again tomorrow cause there's a gig ?? :) Can't wait . Well , gonna survey for clothes too though , Tiring weekend pls? SIGHS . Well ,gonna update pictures tomorrow once yana upload it okay . xoxo .
With love ,
Syaheraah .

My friday

Dear cyber diary ,
School was okay and maths paper was kinda hard. Well , i studied and i tried my best . So , i did not need to pay any attention at POA lesson cause i dropped duh .HAHA . I slept even . Oh my . Well , recess talked to riyanita about her cousin , hahaha , so funny . Ummm , so last period was chemistry and hell yeah . i paid my full attention and ms. lin told me i got B4 for my exam! I PASSED! . So that made my day  . After school stayed in class with bbygee wani firdanie and uma and my closest boys . Played soccer and yes ,the ball hit my head and nah, it dosent hurt but its kinda funny though . Well , then me and uma went to meet iqa and shazee in the canteen . So ya, had a fun time gossiping . Ummm , went home and did nothing except for my lappy lor , im so bored so im updating bloggy now . Well , going to wavehouse with bestfriend dayah , for what photoshoot thingy??? Kinda not sure though . Well , that's all , update soon :) .
with love ,
Syaheraah .

My sleepless nights studying .

Dear cyber diary,

So , it is a exam week this week . Started off on wednesday . Well , english paper was easy and i think i almost cried while i was writing my composition . I write about a title called home , about how me and my mum bonded and she passed away out of a sudden.I know , im so emotional .  But , never did i fail writing a sad ending in compo's cause i never believed in a good ending .So yeah , studied social studies a day before and did not sleep. Well good for me the social studies paper was damn easy and i think i can manage a pass ? or A1 ? hehes. So , next was malay paper and combined science . I did not sleep the night before studying science . Well , i was very dissapointed with my physics paper , did not study well for it :( . But im sure i can pass my chemistry as i studied really hard for it ! . Well , stayed back in school till 9pm just now to revise maths . Yes , my algebra is BAD . Luckily my friends from level 4 and 5 helped me . love them please .So yes , i saw someone  wearing yellow. HAHAHAHA , kay i should shut now . Well ,today is gonna be the fourth day im not gonna sleep , yes , im collecting eyebags , only for common test la , or exams? Well , gonna revise maths soon , And my crush damn cute please  ,duh , im cuter . HEHE . oh ya , Yan's abg sedare likes me awwwwwwww shoooooo cute please :). Well , goodbye loves .
With love,
Syaheraah .

My saturday and sunday ♥

Dear cyber diary ,
My saturday was quite a fun tiring one . Well , basically went head to town . Had usual routines to the flea but the flea was like , kinda pathetic .Cause only few flea sellers were there . I was with Dayah , shazee and aidil . Had a fun day with them laughing and crapping well not to mention looking at some cute boys . Nah , we just love looking . So  , how about my sunday you say ? It was boring i tell ya . I woke up at 1pm which is to me kinda late cause i always wake up at 9am . This can't be happening . Well , i changed my blogskin , link and all as i find it too dusty i need to do something about it since a laptop is in my hands now . LOL . Tomorrow is monday, well , im not sure what lessons im having but , im sure its gonna be okay since its a monday . I hope so. Common test is starting soon and oh my god , disaster , im thing im gonna fail my social studies if i don't study . Well , gonna continue facebook and twitter as usual guys . If you want me to link you up or anything please tag me okay ? Gonna update soon ,
with love ,
Syaheraah .

love is not .

Its 4am and im still awake omg . i cant seem to go to bed . sighs . so , yea , just updating for fun . i miss my babygirlbb :( . meeting her definitely today! Meeting A too . yes , i contacted him back la . hahahaha , D too .k shut it . Going out with uma in monday . haha . looking for school bag mah . so yea , thats about it . love you guys , i know its boring , i will update a proper post soon , i promise . :)

2011 PARTY !

HELLO GUYS , HAD THE BEST COUNTDOWN EVER! dance party ! grind shake till we drop . and yes we dropped ! hahaha! was supposed to be with dayah only but then bumped into miera kay and others la! hahaha , so fun!!! . omo , i wish everyday like that . Made friends , alot! number handphone aku dgn dayah mvm free gitu org mintak bagi . one day free entry . hahaha! omo omo!  hahah . okay guys , i hope u enjoyed urday too okay ? peace out! enjoy pics aje k ? HAHA! :)

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! k bye . xoxo

peace out suckers

hello . so , im going somewhere later so im just gonna update a short post . well , i miss eddie . so much . lol , he is not my boyfriend . used to but not anymore , i just miss him , tk salah kan ? so , gonna go sowhere today and i pray i wont die . sighs .... life huh ? wish me the best guys . and ya . love while you still can , cause i cant , its bad . :( . bye .

I still hope.

A long time ago, so sad and unknown,
A girl sat, staring, unseeing, out her window,
Tears falling, so silently, streaking, down her cheek,
Remembering, living, old, never-to-be-forgotten memories,
Sitting by the window, hand up against the glass,
eyes glossy, her eyes no longer dance,
Her heart was once whole, beating, alive,
But now her heart is gone, dead, iced over, so cold,
One thought always constantly within her mind,
One thought that shall never, ever, be answered,
The wanting to know, it’s so deep, it’s now a burning desire,
but it’s a worthless desire, because she will never know,
Never know why he’d hurt her so,
So by the window she sits, in her shirts and jeans,
tears streaking down her face, while she remembers things,
Things that should never be remembered, for oh, how they hurt her,
Things that tear at her very soul, things that tear her apart,
Day after day, you’ll find her there, sitting by the window,
eyes unseeing, yet her mind so alive,
Day after day, you’ll see all those tears fall

Dear "pakcik" , i miss you .

How can someone write about a love when there is no words to explain. Its hard to go to each day and not have the person you love to be with you. Its hard to be happy knowing that you have to wait to see them. And when you do ...You only get a certain amount of time. I cry almost everyday to help ease the pain I feel from missing him and being alone. To go to bed and reach for the one you love and they are not there...just a space...like the distance between us. My Heart has a cloud over it and when you come around the sun starts to shine through..but when I have to say bye again....The thunder and rain begin to pour over my heart. My lonely nights will some day end. But right now my pain is great. With love you will have hurt. If loving was always being happy then it wouldn't be love..because you will always miss it when its gone. My tears seem to ease my pain from not having you here to hold me. So my eyes grow weary from the fallen tears. Through my eyes pours the rain from the storm over my heart when you are gone. Paradise is right around the corner..Sun shinning bright and beautiful days to come. Time is what will stop the storm and the pain. Someday I wont be alone and the sun will rise in my eyes and dry away the rain.

im sorry for that decision i made . im sorry for myself too . one day, you'll know .

Someone , anyone, free on saturday ? Text me . Let's go out .

An endless chattering of voices assaults my ears
Comments and inquiries washing over me in a wave of chaos
I turn away and search through my surroundings
Eyes sliding over familiar faces of students
Slowly my vision glazes over as my mind dozes

A moment of rest, day dreamy thoughts start to fill my sight

When suddenly my eyes snap back into focus
Narrowing in the face of a boy, one that i have seen before
In passing, the hallway, the yearbook....but never have i seen so clearly
That smile

Trying not to stare, my gaze keeps flickering back
Carefully attempting not to attract notice
But too enraptured to give up looking at him

Oops, he almost saw...or did he? I turned quickly to avoid it
but i'm not quite sure....and i'm not even positive i care.
A smile creeps slowly ontomy own face,
dimples appearing in my cheeks as i glance back again
His smile is contagious, impossible to ignore
I have never met him, but i want to know him.

A teenage crush
I’m almost afraid
Of buffer flies
With knives
They are slashing up my insides
First time it ever happened
One look and I was completely hooked
Nothing I could say
Nothing I could do
Couldn’t explain it
There is just something about you
Not the type of guy I would usually go for
I am scared to talk around you
Encase I make an fool of myself
But the silences they kill me......
My palms are all sweaty
And all I want is for you to glance my way

Flower petals

I don't know what happened to me whether I was crazy or just lonely, all I know is I was sick of being deceived, mistreated, and unloved. Then you came along... I don't know why. All I know is that I felt a connection on our first chat, something I had never felt before which at first made me feel uneasy, stupid and even a bit childish, which made me go through all kinds of emotions as we chatted and began finding we had a lot in common. I felt like we had known each other from an unknown past.

At first I was scared and a part of me wanted to ignore and just believe that you were just someone who was playing a game being that we were both behind the screen. I was thinking I was crazy to have the feelings I was beginning to have for you. I was really upset with myself and became very angry with the way I was feeling. I didn't want to admit to you or anyone else that I was falling for someone I had never actually met. I thought I was becoming insane myself - damn it - I tried to fight these feelings off but they were just too powerful for me to ignore! I tried to convince myself that this can't be for real; I was going insane!!! No matter how hard I tried - I just could not fight the feelings I was having for you.

I have these feelings, deep inside
feelings that I have to hide
I don't know if he feels that way too
And I don't know what to do

So for now I'll love him from afar
One day I'll express how special you are
So until then I will retain this rush
And until then I'll contain my crush. 

So , here you guys go , i dont really have anything to update about . 

Wondering

Hello , im sorry for the lack of updates . Well , i will only update if someone ask me to , that "someone" .  So today stayed home and went out with mum for a short while . Well , i have been goingout at 12am in the morning and going home at 6am , this is sucha bad routine . I must cut down on that . really . So , to someone that is reading this , he was sorry for neglecting me . Well , obviously i was happy that i  got his text . DUH . Im wondering why some people won't let me contact him , some people say this that , i also like what the heck sia -.- . IGNORE RAWR IGNORE , from last year you like him then now people wanna complain , pain in the ass . This makes me frustrated , really . Well , whatever . Tomorrow gonna go nanai's house, grandma , duh. Will be heading to karaoke with cousins next . well , i gtg , update soon , when he asks me too . :P . XOXO.

Have you ever fell in love with someone that you never really talked too , has a 2 year age diffrence , and is totally diffrent from you? i have , trust me , its not working out that well . :/

These sick nights

Hello , its 2.30 am and im still not asleep . bummer , having fever . sighs .So , today basically went for a job interview at bishan , MINI TOONS ^^ .oh yes , im gonna be located near west area but i hope its not gonna be lot one or causeway ? . HATE IT , too many people i know . So , after job interview had lunch with babygirl peeqa . After that went to her house and nap , iwas so sleepy please ? AND HELLO D , you texted me that one not i reply , its peeqa . i was fast asleep ! :P . SORRY . After i woke up , went to meet raqib , rahim , faiz , faizz , aikau , faiq , apiz . Slack and talk  , pranked called , they nothing to do what . hahaa . I waslike stuoid play with their hockey stick like one dumb crazy girl -.- . So , soon around 11 , babygirl went home , apiz  ,faiq,aikau and left with me raqib , fadhil and afiq .Both of them were from work .Decided to have supper atcoffe shop . Had prata . yum! . k shut . hahaha .Went home , and boom! here i am , at last sick !! :S . AND I MISS THAT GUY , I HAVE NO IDEA WHY . sometimes i think im stupid for even hanging on .. am i ?I THINK I AM ? rawr is sucha dumbass! . Well , i gtg , hoping that i meet my mars soon then :/ . XOX .

WELL , HERE YOU GO , I MISS YOU  , OKAY ? 

BABY LOVES DAY OUT!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY PEEQAA! :) and yes , im already okay w her , i dont want sins , please ? im not gonna live long . so , its better if i patch things up . loveyou girls , and erin and iqa , i havent forgot u sexy bitches , i miss you babe , trust me , meet soon , i miss u so bad that i keep on looking at your guys pictures :) xoxo .

Happy birthday to baby star !

Hello peepos . Today was baby star birthday , HE WAS CUTE YAW . hahaha , love you baby , 2 years old liao . Anyhuu , today had our sports week activity  , was kinda fun , i got shooting but it was hard to get the bulls eye . HARD . haha , so , its my babylove birthday today , wani! <3333 . hehehe , got her a present and there's part 2 to it . LOL . gonna update about that soon i think . hahaha . Met fazz and mamat at block 8 together with syarkk too . Went to 159 to meet izzat . got something to do , heheheheh . evil or what ? -.- . haha , so , ginna work  soon , i need money laaa! aigoooo  . Update soon guys , love ya! xxoo , <333 .