no more babes ?

Hey , am currently at home. yes, i did not turn up for school. Its been 2 days. Well, i do miss school alot, but some situation makes me not wanna go to school. Yes, we broke our friendship on the 7th of july. Saddening isnt it? its heartbreaking. Sometimes i wonder why must i always lose people i love? Cant i lose ppl i hate? No more girlfriends i guess yea babes? im sorry if there was anything wrong i did to cause this friendship into pieces.


To iqa,
maybe you were right, i'll
get use to this but, i'll never
not get used to not being together,
that is us all...
will we really break through this pain?
idk babe, i dont think i can.
first i lost the one i love so much,
and now i lose another 4.
its just too much fr me to handle babe.
i cant go through this....

im totally bored right now. i miss someone. yea, it feels so long since i saw him.
i dont know if being with my new someone is better for me.I still cant get over my ex. i love him, still i do. no matter how it hurts me i just cant get over someone special like him. im sorry b, i just have to let everything out. i still love him yes i really do. maybe i accepted you cause i wanted to forget abt him. but somehow still i cant. it just feels diffrent fr me yknow? im really sorry b.
i think i have to end all this bullshit im creating. lets end this . im sorry. im just confused and have no mood to get into relationships anymore. this sucks.
love hurts me so much that i do not wanna fall in love anymore. maybe you are right ,i should be stupid and wait fr him. He did that to me once and waited fr me 2 years, maybe i should feel what he felt fr the last two years? maybe not? sacrifices? is it worth it? i hate unanswered questions, it just confuses you, urgh, i wanna go eat my medicine, my mind is in a twirl right now. i cant update any longer. so yea, tc peeps, i'll update real soon.

youre always in that dream in dreaming ; i miss you...

will you look back?

Hey peeps . am currently at home. yeah, im not working today. at last, i can stay at home and rest.
heh. So, whole day ive been watching tv and joking around with my small sister, yes, its syarafanna that annoying brat. i love her. haahaah. ok, thats stupid. So this few days ive been not feeling that good. well, i miss someone, i miss him. so much. i hope you had fun at camp aye? i miss you .
so, tomorrow im still not working. manager gave me 2 days off for i dont know whatever reason it is. im bored here. my sister keeps reading aloud what im wriring in my blog. irritating la kau nie giler! heeheeh. to "boyfie" sorry cant reply your text messages . my p8 is currently lw, so damn low you cant imagine how low it is. haahaa, ok lame me. i have no idea what time im sleeping today cause i woke up at 6pm! gawsh! that is late! promised erin i'd pick her up from work tomorrow aye giler? haahaa. and stop asking me about fiq okay? aiyerrrr~~!! i miss iqa so much too, biler nk pandang muker comel kau lagy yer qa? haahaahaa. as a matter of fact, i kinda miss school. not the part where we have to study. the part where there are fights,gossips,slacking and joking around in class is what i miss doing. especialy with laughing partners the boys!! haahaa. also, with iqa and erin. so people, i hope you had fun this holiday. my holiday this year is ful of tears. i wish i could turn back time . (sad face). thats all peeps. tckr, i love you all.
xoxo.

if there's one day,
we were to be back together,
i would change myself
to be a better person for you..
just for you, i'll take any risks,
thats only IF we were to be together again..
i knew it would not happened...
ps, i miss you...