will you look back?

Hey peeps . am currently at home. yeah, im not working today. at last, i can stay at home and rest.
heh. So, whole day ive been watching tv and joking around with my small sister, yes, its syarafanna that annoying brat. i love her. haahaah. ok, thats stupid. So this few days ive been not feeling that good. well, i miss someone, i miss him. so much. i hope you had fun at camp aye? i miss you .
so, tomorrow im still not working. manager gave me 2 days off for i dont know whatever reason it is. im bored here. my sister keeps reading aloud what im wriring in my blog. irritating la kau nie giler! heeheeh. to "boyfie" sorry cant reply your text messages . my p8 is currently lw, so damn low you cant imagine how low it is. haahaa, ok lame me. i have no idea what time im sleeping today cause i woke up at 6pm! gawsh! that is late! promised erin i'd pick her up from work tomorrow aye giler? haahaa. and stop asking me about fiq okay? aiyerrrr~~!! i miss iqa so much too, biler nk pandang muker comel kau lagy yer qa? haahaahaa. as a matter of fact, i kinda miss school. not the part where we have to study. the part where there are fights,gossips,slacking and joking around in class is what i miss doing. especialy with laughing partners the boys!! haahaa. also, with iqa and erin. so people, i hope you had fun this holiday. my holiday this year is ful of tears. i wish i could turn back time . (sad face). thats all peeps. tckr, i love you all.
xoxo.

if there's one day,
we were to be back together,
i would change myself
to be a better person for you..
just for you, i'll take any risks,
thats only IF we were to be together again..
i knew it would not happened...
ps, i miss you...

It hurts, alot .

So yea humans. Here to update abt my boring,pathetic,stressful meaningless life.Today me and peeqaa went to ate pasta mania. okay, i was so full . peeqaa ordered so much! damn! . After walked ard with her at lot, went to my workplace. Met aan and went bck to lot again to meet erin and twad.Then i went to my workplace again. I know, i travel alot. heh.Met aan AGAIN. haahaa. Boring isnt it? idk, somehow without gg there does not make my day.theyre fun and they'll always make me smile.Waited fr zairol also . Thabks ahmad blanje era mamam mcchicken! heeheeh. okay, peeqaa is like so nice tday, she treated me alot. idk how many fucking times we drank mccafe sia!
haahaa, i love fluffy alot! yumyum! ate supper too with friends all! syirahh, ily ass. haahaah. im bored. now currently msging "boyfie". hahah. peeqaa you know who . and zairol, jahat sia, suke takot kan era!! eeeee, geram ah, im gonna meet you besok and sepak your face. haahaa, if zai blanje era baru era tk sepak okey?. aye peeps, just a random update, i'll update more aye ? soon soon. heeheeh. ily all.

i thought things were going to get better,
but i made a mistake which made things worst.
if you think its really over and theres no turning back,
then i'll forget abt you or even us.
i just wanted to get back with you..
but i thinked twice and remembered my promise.
i want you to be happy.
youre not happy with me obviously.
you tckr and enjoy life.
i'll always be thinking of you....
im moving on already...
i just wantyou to know,
probably life is better if we hadnt met...
cause this things woldnt have happened and wouldnt'
have hurt me this much...
it hurts so much to love
you the way i do,
and then look at you
and realise how much you don't care..
well i guess there is no more turning back...

i wonder why ?

Hey peeps! am back. Okay, ive just cut my fringe bangs recently. look at me! haahaa. i cut it by myself though. heh. i came home frm work at abt 3.30 today. So many issues sia. gawsh, im glad everything is over.Work was tiring but fun!~ heh. I woke up at 3 today. i had high fever and wanted to skip work. but then, no one was to replace me doing closing. i dragged my tired sick body to work. The moment i reached there, my manager alvin tooked my tempreature. it was slightly okay but he said my face look really sick. i was like, "eh fucker you ask me to come then now you like want me to go home kanina" that was what i said in my heart . haahaa. I just said i was well to work.I miss girlfriend ; twaddley. And sockz, remember we have a phototaking session date huh? Cant wait fr the slumber party bbys! yea, now abt love life, okay, im still confused . Syiirah, i tagged you alrdy who i loved but then, something in my heart tells me, he is happy with whoever he is with now. im happy to see him happy but then it hurts of course. But ive never seen him happy with me so maybe this could be the right girl for him. im happy to see you smiling when youre texting maybe with her. i dont know. but im happy that youve foung happiness.im glad that you have found somebody that understands you.no matter what remember to always look on the brigt sight of any problems you face in a relationship.and talk things out, i dont want you and her to be like us kaye friend? im glad were alrdy getting over things. we've started to joke ard again and talk. im just happy lerr friend. heh, so enough abt that. abd the crush i had at my workplace, hahah, no more lerr. friends are better leiy.well now, am single, am waiting fr my heart to be open up again by mr.right. fr now, i have only one mr.right which is close but yet far. am waiting but...idk, perhaps time wud change everything aye? heeheeh. i cant go to sleep i swear. so yea loves, you tckr and smile always aye? i'll update again, soon soon.
xoxo.
rawr.
ps, bby i'll wait .

Am sorry ; i lied .

Hey peeps am back. Today, work was quite okay. The usual, ppl kept disturbing me. "He" didnt turn up to work today.*hmmph* Somebody told me something that hurt me alot, chose not to believe it. I just wanna keep quiet, i dont know what to say anymore yknow? Should i really make the first move now? idk, maybe i should. Admit it, we still love and miss each other but yet we're hurting ourselves.I reached work happily today when someone told me you were looking fr me yesterday huh?. i don't know whether should i be happy or not? i kept thinking to myself, do you really still love me?
Yes i still do, yes i miss you, yes i kept looking at you during work, yes im not over you.I used someone to get over you, but still i cant.Make me hate you in order fr me to forget you ; seriously. Yore hard to get over . i wanna get our felings straight . i dont wanna be kept in the dark knowing nothing. pls im begging you love.

to the other him, im sorry i can't acept you my heart is not open fr anyone yet. im sorry fr using you to forget him. i like you, youre nice, but i still deeply love him yknow. i really hope you undestand. ive always treated you as a friend, prbly a close friend or someone that could make me forget all my problems.thanks fr everything...ily friend.

to you, if you are reading this, i just wanna tell you i still deeply love you alot, thats all i want you to know...that is all..i miss you..i miss the present us..i miss calling you names..there were many sleepless nights thinking of you..ps, whenever i am, i am always thinking of you... :(

love hurts , but yet, somehow it shows how strong you are to go through these obstacles. i admit, i wasnt appreciating the most wonderful person ive got. i lost him.Am gg sentosa on the 20. i dont know if i really have the mood to go fr an outing. but, i promised my dearest iqa. iqa, i pegy i promise kayh? jgn bungerr lerrr.To supernyonya, do as your heart says, if he really still loves you, and you love him, justgo o, patch up okaye? dont be like me and him, not sorting things out.
both of us got hurt in the end.

...eninroufeerht ssim i ....

So thats all peeps. Gawsh am werking at 8pm today. im so freakin tired.what to do?
tckr loves. ily ppl.

its taking me this long,
but baby i figured you out...
and you think it would be fine again but not this time around..
you dont have to call, anymore, i wont pick up the phone...
this is the last straw,dont wana HURT anymore...

love life ;

Guess who ?

Yes people im back. heh. Im currently at iqa's crib. We're watching a movie later on. Drag me to hell. Can't wait to watch it. The tiring part is, we're going to watch it at marina siaa. Bodoh punyer free ticket, pat marina jer lepas dehh.I skipped work today. I went to school early in the morning. heheh. i kinda miss school, alot. I did not went home fr a day. Having family problems dehh. Im fighting with my MUM. i dont wish to call her mum at all. I hate her.She scolded me with alot of harsh words that a daughter will be hurt if she hears it. Im totally dissapointed with her and her freaking attitude.Maybe im meeting izzat at yewtee mac tomorrow. To do our pet rocket project. I guess it will only be the two of us as awang and alang da tk tau mane hilang. heeheeh. I rebond my hair 3 days ago. i still think it sucks. i wana cut it short soon ^^ . heheh. Confirm ugly but rimas dehh. so, life has been great for me. but not so. Still have somethings which are not settled yet.hmmph, why must me and him react that way? Did what i did hurt him really badly? Do i cling too much with guys? I dont know. i just wish everything would start all over again, and i wud take the correct path. hmph.So people, thats all loves. I'll be back. To aan, pls be back frm malacca fast? i have no one to talk to on the phone at night la ass? imy gilerr!!! ^^ .

But i miss you more ____ .

ps, im always thinking of you.