School , i love you .

Hello cuties and enemies .
Let's blog about today . I went to school ALONE as usual cause i do not have a boyfriend in school ! haha , ok that is lame . So , yeah , reached school  , meet nana baby ! We are so frustrated that our recess is changed to 10am , it sucks big time love! . So yes , school was a long day today! But it was fun ! Why? Edwin keep smacking the back of my chair which hurts my butt , wan sulaiman keep on talking nonsense , they kept pulling my hair . We talked about thanesh ! hahahhaa . Sometimes pity him always get bully from me  , edwin and wan . Oh yes wan , thanks to me you no need go parade square ah , i covered you , syg kau! . sheesh . hahaha . Oh , english lesson was really fun  i get to text cookie , wah , like i reply so fast , teacher look at me smile only,bodoh . -.- . haha . Then , POA . OMG ! I SLEPT! hahahaha . MS HEW IS SO BORING! I MISS MR.CHANG! :( . Nvm , must endure lah okay ? . Oh then it was maths ! wow ,  i sleep also , hahaha , no life sia rawr . Then it was assembly which was dragged till 2pm ? Having elective module next week and i am taking project makeover course . WEE~! cannot wait! . So ya ,slacked in school with honey bees , and "someone" accompanied me at canteen , aww , he's sweet but sorry not interested already la okay ? Thanks FRIEND . So ya , then PURR called , ok ok , then suddenly because of connection make us like fight like that . I was shocked you know he suddenly like so angry at me . PURR , i did not change okay ? i promise im still the old me , its just school which only takes up 6hours , i promise i did not change , I LOVE YOU , and  , i always remember you , if i never think of you also when i sleep already ley! See , aku da obsessed dgn kau! hahahaha . Da , i sound like a stalker already . -.- . He called me that too , so shh! . hahaha . Anyway , can anyone please forward time a month fasteeeerrr ??!?!?!? haha , I MISS KUCING ! :(
Oh ya , im not going to school tomorrow , why?SELUA PE HILANG! hahahaha . booohoooo . Cannot play captains ball ! Must clean house , nevermind , one day only! ENDURE! . Ok sexy dudes and babes , that's all , bye love you , xoxo .

i love the way he says anyway ... :)

Could this get any worst ?

Hello human-roids .

So , today was kinda okay for me . Babygirl treated me to macdonald and we were like talking and stuffs . Went  home to eat durian and went out again to bbygirls house . Awww , we are like crazy bitches . hahahaha , funny sia she , and she has a great voice okay . So ,  as you know im pretty excited for school actually , but something brings me down . AWWWV , i cannot meet my crush for like a month ? like seriously ? i was so sad when he texted me that . Cannot on the phone , cannot meet . CANNOT TEXT ALSO . DIE DIE DIE . My heart shattered into a million pieces cause i tend to get sick when i miss him . OMG  . This is ridiculous  i know . And worst , i cannot online in the afternoon ?!?!?!?! . This sucks really . OMG . i WANT TO MOVE TO CCK LA PLEASE ? :( . MUMMMMMY!!!!!!! .  I am so sad , fed up and SAD!!! . I dont even  know how to describe this sadnesss!!!!!!!!!! . Ohno . Im blogging like stupid . Well , its getting late , i shall stop till here , love you and crush , I MISS YOU ALOT I FEEL LIKE CRYING SIA COOKIE!!!!!

i miss you saying you miss me .

This girl hates love for sure .

There are things you don't want them to happened , but you have to accept . There are things you don't want to know , but you have to learn . There are people you can't live without , but you have to learn to let them go .So ,there's this boy , the way he laughs , make me smile , the way he talks gives me butterflies , everything about him just makes me happy . But for now , i believe that my first love never dies , i think its the chapter is gonna begin , again . This is confusing yet exciting , these chapters of my life .

All i need is you to need me .

Rafusicul 2010

Hello baby loves!
Just came home from my dance competition , and karaoke night ! :) OMG , i had so much fun . So baaad , cookie tk dtg !  hahahahahaha . WE HAD MUCH FUN AND MADE FRIENDS WITH ALL THE DANCERS! OMG! THEY WERE SO CUTE AND ALL OF THEM DID A GREAT JOB! . I shall upload ALL pictures tomorrow cause ikashy and the others are prbably too tired too upload it all . I was so nervous just now and phew , everything felt kinda ok after it . HAHA . THANKS FOR THE MANY SUPPORTS !! Oh yes , bumped into loads of people !! awwwwwww , hugged , all missed each other . there were tears , everything was like awwwwwww!! .Bestfriend was there aww! took pichas with him , you all upload la faster la dehh ! haha . Then off too karaoke needed two rooms as there were many of us! :). We sing sing headbang jiwang like mad . Got video also sia ! hahahaha . ALL UPLOAD . Its was the best day eva! :) . My skandal say he wanna send me home then he hungry , he want eat , i tired like fuck already , i go home take cab , socks belanjaaa! aww! thanks!awwww!  . Ok , i cannot wait for SCHOOL . omg yes , i said that , i miss it so much !! ugh!! i want my school girl life!! hahahahaha . I want to rest bbyloves , bye for now! xxoo .



DO YOUKNOW I MISSYOU LIKE HELL ??!!?!?!?!?!?!?!?HAHAHAHAHAHA .

My last words to you cookie .

Its not that i really really wanted to say goodbye , but then , at that moment of time i was really like confused and hurt , since your life is probably getitng better without me even as a friend , me here , just wanna wish you the best . My last words to you :

Zaidi , please remember to not always drink coke , its bad for your health , once or twice a day only okay ? Remember not to shout at your family members especially your mum if you have no mood or something . Learn to sleep early as school is reopening soon . Don't say that you will have no social life , just remember that all you have to do is do well in your studies and graduate with good results . Don't spent too much money on food okay , control your spending especially on food . Go less in eating butter , its not good . Go make new friends , im sure they probably will be a better friend then me . I hope everything in life goes well okay ? I want to see you smile the next time if i ever bump into you . And , love someone from who they are , and im sure you will believe in love again . If you are sick , stay home and eat your panadol cause i know panadol will heal you , please remember all this okay ? I really care about you and this is all my last advises to you . And , you are the best crush i ever had , thanks for everything . Any problems whatsoever , text me , i'll be glad of a help , or maybe not ? i love you , takecare . xoxo .

All we are left now are memories we can look back into and smile .

Its funny cause it hurts .

Must me be this sad for you ?

Hello . Yes , aint we cute ? awww . Today had briefing at bradell . Me , adayy , frina and bbygee . Oh yes , all dancers looked so cute , awww . HAHA . Qhairiq , hairul and shafie is part of thr organizer  , and oops i have a crush on one of the comittee members oi! he is like so  cute , and i like the way he put his arms around me . :) . k shh about that , its just a temporary crush okaay . So , the 4 of us took circle line mrt just to sleep . haha , and then me and bbygee head to lot one . Went to library . Umm , ya . i need to post something to niyuuuuut . :(

TO NIYUUUUUT :
Hey , dont think that no one is there for you , cause im here for you okay ? Are you running away from problems ? cause it is not a good solution at all . I MISS YOU . ALOT . :( Like you said you missed me. Well , i want to meet you soon . You know im always here for you okay ? i doubt that you think that way . please , text me . eventhough im going to be busy with my dance competition and stuffs , my mind wil always have you in it , cause me love you okay ?

WELL , thats all peepos , i'll update soon okay ? love you . xxoo

im so sad for you , do you know i even cried  ? i care okay ? im here . :(

I miss your smile

Hello  , its 3am . I was asleep at 1am and was awakened  by a loud crash , and woke up to check my text . wow , 10 texts? wow . hahahaha . Now on the phone with zaidi , awww . I miss his voice like so much . awwwwwwww~~~ . I am sick , ugh . Flu amd fever . HMPH . So , i have to  wake up early for a dance meeting  today . Around 10 am ? early huh  ? Off to jp . Meeting crews  . weee~~ . So , probably  buying stuffs for dance competition . So , yes , till here then , gonna update soon . xoxo .

To niyuuuuut :
sorry i cant go out with you okay ?  i make sure i will meet you soon and give you one big hug! Miss you! xoxo <3 <3
 

Melt my heart sooner or later .

Konichiwa love !
It is 12.24am ! Im waiting for someone to online . 4 down , 1 more to go !  Today had practice near frina's house. It was kinda fun  , and then WE were so tired that we decided to go to her house to have a break . I kept on playing tap tap revenge , justin bieber version ! wuuuuuuuu! . hahahaha . Ate lunch , and lie down on the sofa . Frina asked me to go to her room to sleep . Then i went in , omg the bed , water bed! FUUUH , if only i have boyfriend ah just now lay with me . HAHA , k diam . I was cat napping , and my phone ZzZzZzZz , VIBRATE LOR! .hahaha  . Zaidi texted , so text text text , i cannot sleep . And eka said , "ala kesian nye rawr muke cute nk tido tk tido tido.." I say "kerana sayang~" Then eka say , "waaaaaah~!" hahaha , frina , i love your brother ! :) . HAHAHA . We had all the formations done , only remixing of songs!! . HMPH . NVM .

So , yesterday , i had fun using the laptop . FOR THE 1ST TIME I SAY I LOVE ONLINING ! K DIAM LA RAWR . haha . But , idk la , impossible la , friends better huh ? Then everybody ike nothappy , well , i also don't care what peoplesay la , they no life . HAHA . Bumped into mummy at the bus stop on the way home . Then she texted  , asl tk jumpe _____ ? HAHAHAHA . KPO LA MUM , I LOVE YOU! HAHAHA . Reached home and i tweet tweet ! hahahaha . Daddy discharged liao ! phew!
sayang him ! mwah mwah ! . So , i guess , till here im gonna update love! LOVE YOU ! <3 <3
XXOO .

him-The reason i text you is because i saw you and him keep on posting hearts at fb , and i cant help myself , im really hurt , you said you loved me ? why are you doing this to me ?

me- thats the reason you texted me?  just for this , ? come on . i did and used to love you , you hurt mee toooo deeep , and im not with him , stop believing in rumours laaa . its true i ___ and ____ him , cause he dosent hurt me more , he makes me smile more . even as a friend , he is a great guy .

Not gonna post all , but this is the main thing . hey , i missedyou , but , i just think ... idk , we have to talk . hmmmmph :(

All those love that kept me going .

Sometimes i don't get me at all .

Hello peepos .
Im home from hospital  , visited daddy just now and luckily he is fine now . phew . I miss him coming home yeah . So , today , had dance practice at cck . Finally everything is going ok . Only the song needs to be edited . I wanna thanks sherini sexy for combining it togetha , thanks hunny . So , im still not having enough sleep , im growing crazy , hell yeah i am . Was on the phone with zaidi yesterday night forlike 5 hours , fuuuuuuuh , so long ah ? Still somebody say not enough , walao , nyuuuuut or what  ? HAHA . So , eventually , i still have to sleep even though for 3 hours , i dont mind , awwwwwww . Tomorrow ? Same routine  , dance and then to hospital . I don't have a life , duh , im ten years old . HAHA . Sighs , sometimes i just don't get me , like ouh am gee , im being dumb , like seriously , so numb already my heart , well , im just a confusd girl piggy infront of the laptop that cant think straight , especially love llife . WHY ?! I need help , anybody  , or everybody make me stop being so , idk , dumb ? I still think its a mistake , cause , it really is . The crush thingy , then love then confuse , like wth right me ? RAWR YOU ARE SO DUMB LA , SIGHS . I want to die la . You see la , now i no mood liao . Update son guys , love you , xoxo <3

TO YOU:

wo yao kao su ni , wo si huan ni.. eke ting , wo puchetao , wo ai ni ? wo de sing hen tong . Ni si huan eke nui ren , wo ? wo puchetao wo ai se sey , wo si huan se sey ?ni ? ken ta ? wo chende puche tao . wo yao ni che tao , wo chende chende si huan ni , wo iting si huan ni   , wei se mo ? - Cause you fill my heart with love .

fourteen of june

Hello babyloves !!
So , today had a slow dance practice with dayah and frina . So slow . HAHA . So , then skip that part . I met ZAIDI PURRYS !! <3 weeeeeeeeee  . I MISS HIM LIKE HELL !! . Okay , im so the malu already , haha , miera forced me , OMG ! hahaha . IM SO THE MALU , K SHHHHH . ok  i have to go . BYE BYE! <3

can i start to love you ? <3

Im awfully sick , why ?

Hello earthlings .
Im still sick  , yes . But , its kinda getting better. I hope its gonna get better as in really well . I have dance practice tomorrow , hmm , hopefully , it end earlier so i can meet zaidi . I miss him , oh my god so badly , i got sick cause i miss him you know ! . awwww~ . Anyhu , im having another blog which is with baby girl , go to my links and you know who she is . Doing a together blog with her ! yay me! . I mean us. Anybody elase wants to open up a blog with me ? I'd be glad to do so . <3 . So , i was running with a high fever today , boohoo :( . I was really weak and all i did was sing to myself , then cry , then talk to myself , i becoming crazier . -.- . IKR ? hahaha . Okay  , i really have not much to post . love you readers! xxoo <3 .

Zaidi purrys , i really really hope
i can meet you honey , oh gosh
i missed you , so much! :(

Missing you , ZJ ♥♥♥

Hello humanoids .( having fever , cough , flu , sorethroat ).
So , today was a  moody day for me . Start from someone's text . Sighs , was i really harsh , im really sorry . I miss him , alot alot . So , got ready for dance practice and  , me , ikashy , frina and dayah were the only ones . Bby girl and miza is at malaysia . miss them . So , as usual had our practice but ikashy went home first , then went to lot with daya and frina , we had a blast of laughter . like , they managed to cheer meup a lil . Sighs ~  . Then both of them went home and i went to meet aikau and zack , they kinda tried to cheer me up  but still , only a lil . So , i really was moodless and wanted to go home . And , i was having fever . Out of a sudden . Im feeling so weak .  Sighs ~ again . Then came home and lied down on my bed , still havent eaten . Too moody to eat . Too missing to eat . Too devastated to eat .  Sighs~ . Im now blogging  , like one sad piggy pouting infront of the screen . Help ? . I miss him until i sick . wow? . IDK . But , i just miss him . Hope he text me soon when he top up his phone . Thats all , update soon , xoxo / <3 .

I stopped loving him , and started liking ................. :/

I have a crush on you .

Hello homies! :)
How are you guys doing ? So , today was a really boring day for me !:( . Stayed home the whole day , sleep with mum and cook with her all . Kinda fun though . There was suppose to be a dance practice today but many people could not make it , so we cancel it . Tomorrow me and ikashy have to ceograph steps for our yok goyang song . We are glad to have finish jaiho , when i grow up and sorry sorry . We should remix the songs soon . Phew , i've been having cramps all over my body due to practices . But , what to do ? I love dancing . HAHA . So yes , met sayed , awww , fyi , he is my big sister friend , please , we are friends , im having  a crush on someone else , not sayed eh please . He keep on braggin about his motorcycle , irritating , serious . HAHA . And he bought for me candy floss ! cute kan !? haha , if you were not 21 , i would have considered you , k shh . Ok , i dont know why , im having a crush on him , omg , its like really impossible , god , help me please ? sighs . I CANNOT LIKE HIM .No way , like seriously no way . If he knows about this , we will never talk , forever , i think ? Only one soul knows , phew , so . I kinda miss him . AWW~~~.shhhhhhhh . This is for you , I MISS YOU! As if he know like that , haha .Okay im done here , loveyou , xoxo .

There's a reason why i like you.... <3333

Im growing up .

As we grow up , we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down , probably will . You will have you heart broken probably more than once and it gets harder everytime . You will break hearts too , so remember how it felt when yours was broken . You'll fight with your bestfriend  , you'll blame new love for things an old one did . You'll cry because time is passing too fast and you'll eventually lose someone you love . So , take too many pictures , laugh too much , and love like you've never been hurt , because every sixty seconds you spend upset , is a minute of happiness you'll never get back .

Love can sometimes be magic , but magic sometimes could be an illusion .

Night with zaidi ♥_♥

Hello lovers !So , today was a tiring fun day for me . Morning woke up to have dance prac at around 11am , ended at 5 , which is like 6 hours or so ? Ceographing for 3 songs already worked out , left one more . WOW . So , then at 5pm , i head straight to meet zaidi . He wanted to have macdonald so i accompanied him . The way he eat is so weird , weirder then me you know ! HAHA . And yes , we bought bands again ! :) . I bought the one yellow in cloour . He bought green and another one blue plus green ? hahaha , we had a tiff because of the colour . So then we walked around lot one , by walk around , really really how many rounds also i dont know . AND ! we went to roof top and talked talked , okay , very funny sia he , i thought he ___ you know , alamak , scare me .
AND , there's this girl  , pundek , who say we are talking bad about her , aku punye malas nk layan  , da penat , aku ckp la , i did not , okay ? get it ? uh ye uh ye je aku ckp . Then zaidi fed up , zaidi shout , "we get it la!" hahaha , then being sarcastic towards her , then she walked away . alamak,  pandi paria . UGH . Then , zaidi bought these cute glasses , i choose one okay ! hahaha . LOL . I like when he wears specs , make him look complicated . We went off to chill somewhere  , haha . Then talk talk , like cute like that us . HAHA. K diam . We talk about our life , mcm emosi gitu kan ? :( . haha , ok da , too much info . Then it was going 12am like that then we went home . took cab . hahaha , fuuuuuh , letih laaa boooo . I had a blast night talking  , sayang kau tau kucing ! hehehehehehehe . That's all bloggers , love you , xxoo .

Dont say that you have no life , i can be a part of it okay ? A part of your life . :)
FOR YOU ! :)

I need to schedule myself.

Hello honey !
So , see that guy up there ?  I MISS HIM SO MUCH ! Was suppose to meet him , but i had dance practice. So , to make it up to him , i asked if we could have breakfast at MACD together cause that is the only time i will be free , which is in the morning cause i have dance prac . I called him up , and ended up fighting like that ? I hung up . Then i felt so bad , and texted him to meet him at 5pm tomorrow . I hope he is not mad at me for bailing him twice . :/ SORRY HUN . But he will always forgive me and give in , i should give in at times . I finally wore the friendship band that me and zaidi bought , it fits me , i though it didnt like seriously . Well , dance practice was tiring , we managed to clear the starting of the song . So , its gonna be a blast of a dance ! Performance will be at jurong point  25th june i think . COME SUPPORT ME LA ! okay , im done here , gotta download songs for dance , love you guys . xxoo .
toodles .

Can we come true again ?

Sometimes when i think of you , 
all i want to do is ask you , 
"would we come true again?"

Common mistakes people make is to leave someone they actually love . Reasons ? "You're too good for me" , "i love you so much that i have to let you go." As a matter of fact , these reasons are foolish , stupid , its a mistake i tell you . I just wish i did not let him go , its like only a week we were together , and i risked the chance and said we have to break up . I really had no reason as i wanted to just be single . Maybe its not because i want to be single but i just love someone else . This guilt is killing me and , i really wanna say sorry to you .  Im sorry for not replying your text messages  , i just think that you can find someone better than me , this is true , im not good for you , at all . Im being foolish here but i still think you deserve the best honey . i miss you . I miss those time you kept on saying i miss you even when you were beside me . Please , i just want to tell you , you are the best , you love me for who i am , but , it;s just me boy , i dont know why , im sorry for hurting you , i love you _________ . :( .


every love story has its downs ....

Happy Birthday Ryan ! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN ! May your wishes come true and have a BLAST of time on your bitrhday .
 love , 
RAWRRITA MONBI . :) 

Can i just say im trying my best to be fair to all of you . :(

Hello lions ! :)
Oh yes , i had fun in maths lesson today . Why cant Mr.Lee have it every friday ? SIGHS .
Tomorrow , was supposed to go to kat nageisha's singing audition , but i cant make it , i had to buy a new phone .
So going out with my cats purrys tomorrow to survey handphone . :) . <3 <3 .
Okay , i admit , i've been giving problems to zaidi but im sorry okay ?
I will try to control my temper ok ? SORRY A MILLION TIMES , but  you know i love you right hunny ? :) .
Im missing these people right now :
Kat nageisha , Diena brown , Nana Suffian , Sam , Nomad , Faiz , Eeylah , Yuyun , Sheren , Tytee , Iza, Peeqa , Wan sulaiman , IRWANSHAH , and many more , icant possibly type all of them , too many. I MISS YOU GUYS :( . I DID NOT FORGET YOU ALL , TEXT ME K LOVES? :)
So , im excited to buy a new phone tomorrow !
using bill laaaaaa siol!
haha , k shhh .
Should i get a  blackberry ? or samsung or htc ?
I DONT KNOW . Well ,
let's see how tomorrow goes huh ?
WOW , its already 1am ? im having cramps !
PSST ; ilove watching the nanny okay !


it feels as if im not his bestfriend anymore , i feel so down... i  want the old you towards me , please? :'( i love you miss you so much ... (lovesamrawrritabestfriendsforever) . (L)

When i look at you . ♥

“It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.”- (Syaheraah,12:41am)♥

Im just missing you .

"Sometimes when i miss you ,i would just hear our favourite songs , songs we used to sing together on the phone."


Hello sexy and hunky .
Today was a normal kinda boring day for me . Can i not blog about it  cause its just boring . So recently i was on the phone with cat daddy purrys and baby tiger miera .I LOVE YOU BOTH HONEY . Im kinda missing somebody , someone , him . ARGH , why ? Cause i just had to go to youtube and hear the song did you foret by demi lovato . dumb me .

Im happy to say this year , overall , its a good year . I made new friends , broke alot of hearts and played alot of bitches game that deseverved the pain . whatever . And not to forget  , i owe the best bitches in the world , KAT , DIENA , NANA , MIERA . I own the best boys too , SAM , ZAIDI , AYIL , RIDHWAN , FAIZ , NOMAD . If i forgot some , please  , im a forgetful girl , im sorry .

So , i wish to have more upsss these remaining year please ? And the coming future . PLEASE OH PLEASE HUH ?? Hopefully . Well , thats all guys , nothing much to update , me love you . :)
xxxxooooxoxoxo


I want us again if we could huh ?