my oh my

"Tell them what i hoped would be impossible ."

Remember how we used to be ?

"Used to be are the best memories."

Don't be mad

And here, I thought it was me.
I was changin', arrangin' my life to fit your lies.
It's all said and all done.
I gave it all for the long run.
Can she say the same thing?
I guess this is good-bye and good luck

I can't be what you want me to be.
I'm sorry for changing.
I'm sorry it had to be this way.
Believe me, it's easier just to pretend.
But, I won't apologize for who I am. 

                                               I thank you for this hopeless war
                                 Cause through the pain now I am stronger than before.
                                                             Now I'm more.
                                                  I don't need you anymore.
                                                                I'm sorry. 

Pinkie swears .

Konichiwa , oh yes , just wanna wish to EDDY SIM JING JIE a HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY , ENJOY YOUR SPECIAL DAY OKAY AHBENG , AND OH YES , I MISS YOU , HAHAHA .<333333333333

So , my day was well spent at home as mummy do not wanna go to geylang.  good, cause i heard it was boring . So , just a reminder to myself , notto get jealous over STUPID PEOPLE OR THINGS . HAHAHA . Wow , i think my menses coming la thats why sudden emotion cause actually really i don't care ley . haha , oh how i wished school open fast . i miss someone Bad! heehe . Just a short post will do! :) . xoxo .

you're so special  , i still love you .

Exhausted .

MEET MY CUTE SKANDAL , IM TIRED , BYE . <3 SORRY .

These late nights .

Ohaiyo , im still not asleep and it is already 1 am and i have school tomorrow . Oh ya , my lil sis is awake with me too . She has no school tomorrow , and yes , fuck i have school . ugh , im so lazy to go to school but i can i love school because i can meet my loved ones please!!! :) . Oh yes , im planning to go to geylang with my hunks and babes this friday , hope they can make it , its just a plan first but i still not sure . GUYS REPLY ME SOON  , PLEASE! :) . Today , after i break-fast , went to meet my lovely ikashy , peeqaa , sam , izaad , fahmi and more . hahaha , slacked . Talk trash la as usual thats what we do alwatys and yes most importantly always gossip! hahahaha! . About dance thingy lor! sheesh , so the confusing la people !!! . In the afternoon  , zaidi called , hope he's okay now , sheesh , people who treat him badly needs a slap from me please!!! . ugh . i swear if the law let's me and only me to kill people i would kill them for you zaidi ! . hahahaha . So , i think i should sahur a lil early today , if not i wont have enough energy for school :( . hahahaha , luckily lil missy is awake to accompany me . Ah , i miss syaizstar and my sister kiki la! When the fuckin hell are they coming home!! . hahaha , i shall stop before i go gaga la okay :) . goodnight , or morning ? haha , bye anyways .
! . :) xoxoxox.

I love my lovelies .

Hell sorrow suckers . School was super duper fun , and i almost KISSED someone . :P . Just an inch more it was . HAHAHA . OKAY , HERE'S THE SITCH , Tomorrow is FAIZ birthday! my son , here's for him : Happy birthday dearest son i care and love , may you feel blessed and happpy on your special day , and i hope it will be really special .  I just wana say that you have been a really great good friend . you never fail to make me laugh , never fail to put a smile on everybody . It reminds me of your bestfriend , arwah amirul hafiq . I know since he passed away , you ever had someone close like he was with you , but , you know what ? you got us , your friends who loves and care about you , we just wana see you smile , the way you make us smile , faiz , you are the best , happy sixteen birthday . i love you ; muumy monbi .
So  , that's all folks , just a special post to a very good friend and son of mine <3 . xoxo .
friendship never ends .

Let's just say ..

It's no wrong for bestfriends to hug this way , 

cause both of them need each other , 

love each other

and can feel each other's heart , feel each other's pain.

It's not a sin to have a boy bestfriend.

but , 

its the biggest mistake to fall in love with him .

I've been there . 

It sucks , somehow.

But , i like it somehow too .

 it will be a chapter starting in the future hopefully.

But not now , i'll have to wait for it .

And i will always will . 

Fucked up .

I don't have any idea why you people  , i mean enemies and haters are being sucha jerk . Well , first , isnt it my problem to like who ? So what if you know him ? Its not as if he's yours , too late , he LOVES me . Please oh please get your own boy . And secondly , what is with you people calling me a bitch ? Cause i know alot of your guy friends ? Well too bad , they wanted to know me MORE!!! . hahahaha . loserz weeperz . tsk tsk , so damn irritating bitches . And thirdly , i am not attached, so , why do you people keep on bugging me saying last long , ignorant , player . jealous much ? THAT'S YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM!!!!! -.- . i hate you kpo'ers! xoxo .

I wish...

Trust me ,

i've been typing this on my phone , 

everyday .

But i delete it .
Because i did not know it would be this hard .
It's hard because , 
i cant find the right words to say ,
how much i still love you , 
 because i told you , i moved on .

For every single thing , you kept me going .

(i miss old hair)Hello , sorry for alot of unproper post for days . Im a lil hardworking today so i will post a proper one for you okay ? .So , was supposed to break-fast at geylang today but it was postponed to next friday . So , yes , managed to rest at home cause i am still SICK . So , basically just watched tv and slept with mum . hee :P . Had a  lil tiff with mum in the afternoon . hate it , forget it please ? . So , daddy ordered pizza hut today to break-fast . I was so happy . yumm yumm . So , after break-fast played remote control car with lil missy (childish) and watch the opening of YOG ! . At home la of course . :) . The pretty light colours was so amazing , i wish i was there and the fireworks is better than on national day! :) .So , yes  did you know my bestfriend zaidi lost our friendship band we bought at vivo ? . Nah , i dont blame him , we will buy a new one kay honey ? LOVEYA! . Oh yes , i did not reply alot of farwin's  text , and danha did not text me ? Farwin is mad atme , i knowfor sure . SIGHS . SORRY LOVE , im in no mood . Cl me soon aye baby? xoxo .

It's weird .

Missing prince :(

Hello boys and girls . I shall say i miss bestfriend zaidi . I miss alot of people .I'm in no mood to blog . Dearest prince , i miss you so much Muhd Farwin <3 . 
love you , :( 100910

crushy bushy

you make me smile .

 even if you did nothing,

you still made me smile .

do you catch a breath when i look at you?

when i look at you , are you feeling that same feeling i feel too? 

is this love?

i dont know .

But for some reasons , i keep on thinking about you.

why ?

It all started with a small crush .

But you're younger than me .

It's impossible right?

sighs .

I wish i was a princess .

I just wanna say , HAPPY  FASTING MONTH TO ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE . Better fast , i want this year to be full for me . Oh yes , above are pictures on national day , went out with ALOT of people , around 20 ? wow . I think there's more . Oh yes , finally , my crush contacted me , like , if not , we only contact through facebook , i hate that . HAHA .  Nowcan text, butwhen nk call ? ehem ehem . haha , ala , my prepaid low liao .Must save . So , yes yes , ishall go to bed soon , cause later mustsahur and wake my other siblings up . So , macdonalds for sahur yay! im happy pig . hahah . Update soon peepes , loveya . Oh ya  , my bestfriend ZAIDI JAILANI , i miss you . mwah! .

i wish i was your princess , i miss you , everything about you .

Im sixteen , still confused .

All i want is to be free from love , 

but , its so damn hard.

Cause it's everywhere.

I know love isn't everything , but somehow its always in a part of somebody .

I know , we girls tend to be too emotional at times .

But hey boys , do you know why ?

Because we care .

we love.

Somehow , having too much crush makes people say you're a player ?

Cheating on our boyfriends makes us a liar ?

Having alot of guy friends make us a flirt ?

No .

We're a player cause , too many guys played on us , 

We cheat because because too many times we have been cheated,

We don't flirt , we just need a guy friend to talk to , 

because  "he" obviously knows how guys like to be treated.

We did everything , under all circumstances to make you happy.

But always , 

we were to be blamed , yelled , or cursed .

We tolerate it somehow , 

cause we dont wanna let go .

We endured until our girlfriends call us stupid .

Our family starts to hate you.

People call us dumb to even believe in you .

A lesson to learn here boys ,

we have a much harder time than you think .

Treat us the way we should be .

Because , somehow  , somewhere , 

two of "us" are meant to be together .

APPRECIATE , LOVE .

Learn .

Never regret .

oh shucks , i have a crush on a younger person .....

PURRYS!

ZAIDI JAILANI is my bestest favourite boyfriend ever , really . <3
Today had my performance in school , i was nervous and my leg was cramp and it hurts . But for the sake of the crew , i had to dance . They said it was nice , fantastic , to everyone who supports us , shouted for us , i love you ! we apreciate it alot . LOVES FROM EMPIRE CREW .So , had a great day in school , really . i want turn back time please . LOL . After that went to teckwhye mac with daya and peeqa . Had lots of fun sia! hahaha , especially daya with her annoying faces , cb cb cb! . hahahah .Oh ya , we slacked for quite awhile , long actually . HAHAHA . Went home , and ya , i love on the phone with baby zaidi ! hahahaha , i call all my bestest baby , dont get me wrong here ah . HAHAH , ZAIDI , I LOVE YOU , YOU ARE SO THE IRRITATING LA! hahaha , oh yes , I LOVE BOBI !!!! :D . dance photos and videos upload cepat plesa ? :) . xoxo .
me and besfriend fight but we always get better :)

Please .

Hello readers , im still not asleep  im kinda nervous for tomorrow's performance please ?!?!?!!?!! . ahhh , yes , i think im not gonna blog much , hahaha , and yes , my besfriend lied to meagain !! . hahaha , mati ah kau nanti jumpe ~~ . heeheeeh . wish the empire crew luck boys and girls! <3
I RINDU KAT NAGIESHA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! :(

where ?

I MISS MY DEAREST BESTFRIEND , I HAVE NO MOOD TO BLOG . I MISS ZAIDI JAILANI PLEASE ? BOOOHOO.

And hello girl you no need to talk to my friends about your stuffs ah , irritating . they seem to care but actually they don't , go with you best people only la ! .

Testing 1 , 2 , 3 .

Sup hooligans and angels . `Sorry for not blogging yesterday , i was really tired . School was fun and had dance practice today . Performanceis on friday , and im so nervous and scared , issit the same ? hahaha , LOL . Anyway , yes , went out ofschool around 6.30pm and accompanied daya to have her dinner ? i think ? Its was so hilarious when bestfriend (zaidi)called and daya kept on wanting to be me . As purr would always say , geli ~ . HAHAHA . Halfway my batt went flat ! ah , hp was switched off . damn it  hahahahaha  Then reached home did some unimportant stuffs and bestfriend called . OK , here's the sitch , my bestfriend zaidi is so annoying that he keeps on singing camp rock 2songs and react to artzooka's commercial . I wonder if he got his edible underwear eh zaidi ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! . HAHAHAHA. So , my life is better without hypocrites , grow up kay ? love you , oh no , HATE! . kay readers  , update soon yaw , xoxo , syaheraah tan mei lee . Oh yes ,  I LOVE BOB :`D

you are so not needed in my life please ? I hate you please ? i know my besfriend is gonna get irritated by my please  ? But who cares , i miss crush please ???? :D

Mood-swings .

Come on girl , what are you trying to prove here ? no life . Do you have any idea that you're sucha stalker ? You use people . You're an ug;ly bitch . Get out of the people that i love life's. You're a follower . You're just a hypocrite . ASSHOLE . I HATE YOU .