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Peeps im back frm , only some people know . okay , i miss you all. i'll try to update as son as i feel better okay ? i cant make it on 3rd. sorrry guys . and crew outing with mcdcrews , ill try peeeps. 28 ? im going cause qais,aisyah,liying is going!! and , my beloved stepmther belinda . husband eugene and son earnest! ily ! and iqa,mizzy,frina,erin,izad,fyrz,diena,sam and the others . i miss you all .


ps, im still curious .

love?

Someone asked me what is love
is it good, is it bad
is it awesome, is it terrible
I honestly didnt know how to answer them.
I finally decided love is the most complicated of all emotions
Love is kind
Love is harsh
Love is wonderful
Love is terrible
Love is a cure
Love is a sickness
Love is LOVE
Love is hate
Love is meaningful
Love is pointless
Love shows the best in people
Love shows the worse in people
Love makes us speak truth
Love makes us lie
Love understands everything
Love confuses everyone
Love builds your life
Love tears your heart down
Love makes you smile
Love makes you cry
Love makes us cuddle
Love makes us hit
Love makes the world go round
Love makes the world go crashing down
Love makes things simple
Love makes things impossible
Love is always worth it
Love is never worth it
Love makes us smarter
Love makes us stupid
Love is enlightening!
Love is BLIND
make love not war
make war out of love
Love encourages
Love scares
Love is peaceful
Love creates fights
Love is soothing
Love is tough

...and above all
Love is always worth it
because you become a better person
everytime you love someone
from the simplest caring for a friend
to the deepest desire to love someone til the world ends
from the unconditional love of a child
to the complicated love of the gods
there is...no meaning to love
love means...everything

No matter how much it hurts you, or makes you cry
tries your spirt, and splits your soul.
Love is always worth it...because what doenst kill you
makes you stronger
And however long it takes
you will be, a better person because you lived, though love.
Werent afraid to make mistakes, choices and try again.
And...above all, loved someone no matter what people thought.
You would die for that person...but you would also live for them.
That...is the true meaning of love...

Trying to move on , trust me .

You made me cry...

You tore me apart..

You left me in tears..

You've shattered my heart..

It wasn't your fault..

I guess it was me..

for love can't be forced..

Perhaps we weren't meant to be..

It still doesn't help..

now that i know..

Because for some reason..

my heart won't let go..

I've tried more than once..

to get over you..

but you make it so hard..

with cute things you do..

I thought love was joy..

but i've got nothing to gain..

just sorrows..,tears..

and a little more pain..

The day the pain started ..

reality came too..

It was the day i realized ..

I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU

Why oh why ?

Why can't I forget you?
Why can't I get you out of my head?
Why can't I stop crying?
Why do I feel dead?
When we were together
I felt so alive,
and now I don’t even know
if I can survive.
I know you've moved on,
because we haven't talked in a while,
but I wont let you see me cry
I'll just put on a fake smile.
Just answer me this,
did you really love me?

I want to keep it to myself, can i ?

I have feelings of love for the guy I see.
Does he love me too, what does he think of me?

I wish I could tell him he makes me whole, but I'm afraid to say
what's deep in my soul.

I don't want to lose him, for I would be alone,
and some days I just can't wait to hear his voice on the phone.



He does certain things to make me feel loved,
some days he wants to be alone and my heart is shoved.

I want to feel as though I am his safeguard,
the one he can come to when things get hard.

I will always be there to help him along,
and before we met I wasn't as strong.

I wish I could tell him what I feel inside,
but I'm afraid of what he'll say, how he'll act on the outside.

Im lost , help ?

Somehow i knew , al those memories aint gonna come back. I dont know what dragged me into this.What i meant was, keeping in touch with you . I thought day and night , and sometimes even night till day .My mind is twirling . I didnt knew what i wanted . The used to be or the already being . You wont understand a word im saying . I had fantasies all along , i knew for which , its never gonna come true . Whats the use for now ? What did i ever do making myself so into you?And why did i ever think of getting back at the first place? I dont know but i gotta tell you, loving you really hurts me , and probably i did have enough , but te pain just keeps on coming . And it hurts , really deep...How i wish you will feel how i feel..one word, it felt kinda "stupid".And i just dont want to play this getting over game no more , its eating me alive...Just tell me it aint gonna happened and i'll be gone forever..i promise , cause i know , ive reached my limit , im tied back...

everything was a myth...(L) 1314 .

like a freak i waited yknow .

Im so dumb . Okay , you know how i feel about you right ? I just need a reaction in you okay ? please oh please. So, i wanna highlight my hair soon . Soon , everything is gonna be a blast. I swear i wanna watch where got ghost but rental is so expensive! My heart shattered when the rental cost 28 bucks . I did text him this afternoon, turns out he had to work at 3 to 11 today. okay , how am i going to pass time till 11 ? I feel like a freak at times waiting fr your sms , and when i got it , i would shout , "aaarrrrhhhhh! he text me!! omgaaadd! " i would be like a freak! . Am i giving hopes to myself ? Should i just be with someone that already loves me ? I dont know, its just hard to move on yknow . Im just not happy without him . Okay pls, suddenly im craving for strawberry sundae. No mone with me , sighs, im broke . Really i am . So , im gonna watch 2012 on thursday , with "ehem ehem" giggles, no lah, with my brother . Cute huh ? still not sure yet though . Well, i don't have anything much to blog. So , okay , i love strawberry sundae !

i need you to say something...

True or dare ?

I swear im in love , no, not him. thats bestfriend.haahaa, some people know. well, still being as friends, i dont what the future will bring ?? so, im with my sister, playing y8 games! lol, im so bored! he is already asleep, so sad. i felt bad, he ask me to go to bed but im still wide awake. sorry hor manis! haahaa, hmm, im trying hard though . im so confused right now! SOS! . well , i got to go now. Im meeting bestie tmrw! meeting sheera! haahaa, a new friend from tampines! heehee. well, im quite sleepy now. goodnight love!
xoxo.

im glad we turn out back to square one . (^-^)